I have been told that I am a ruthless and cold mom.  I never want to be or intend to be that way.  I wish people could see how I feel on the inside, but that is the curse of the scorpio i guess never able to show how we truly feel and always misunderstood.  

In my first marriage my husband was the nurturer and spoiled our kids rotten after we split.  As I got into a new relationship, I became so involved with this other man that I lost sight of my children and subjected them to his tyrannical behavior.  Long story short I ended up giving my ex custody of the children and never seeing them again while 8 months pregnant with my second daughter from my new husband.  

Now with my current marriage and our daughter I have let my in-laws practically raise her as I involved myself so much with my husband.  I became unfeeling towards my daughter, until now that I started to realize what I was doing and my husband is leaving me for another woman.  Why am I this way?  It was never my intention to not care for her.  I adore her, I just couldn't bring myself to feel for her I guess out of guilty and shame for abandoning my other children.  What are your thoughts?

Sounds like you may have Capricorn Ascendant or Saturn placed in your 5th house of children as this can suggest cool aloof distant mothers and women who don’t even want children.

Scorpio is jealous, possessive, intense, controlling, demanding and deeply analytical, they make great detectives and researchers to. You simply cannot make generalized sweeping statements about a sign without taking into consideration the natal chart as a whole ---

Basic astrology
Now basically your sun sign is your 'core beliefs, values, ego' and Asc is your physical body, mode of expression and mask and persona that we all wear and hide behind, but definitely not what's going on underneath. What's going on underneath is your Sun sign. Moon sign, house placements and aspects describe your emotional and intuitive responses, also describes your view of your mother, as saturn describes your father by sign and house position.

So, think of a glass milk bottle the bottle is your Asc and your sun the milk, but the milk still has to 'come out' through the glass neck of the milk bottle....

Now aspects within a natal chart represent 'facets' of our personality, because we are all multifaceted beings. What these do is 'break down and compartmentalise' these facets into smaller bite size chunks. This does take quite a lot of self analysis and objectivity to 'see yourself' and why you do certain things and behave in certain ways. Actually it can be quite good therapy...

Remember back to your school days an opposition is 180', square 90', trine 120', and sextile 60' Now challenged aspects are conj (depending on the planets, cos some like each other and some really don't) squares and oppositions. Easy aspects are conj (if the planets get along) eg: Jupiter conj Moon, sextile and trine. Quincunx is inbetween (depending on the planets) causes health strains and unresolved or hard to balance planets/energies.

Attached is my chart.  My relationship with my mom was very turbulent and ended because I decided I couldn't be around her anymore.  I wanted to be a differnt kind of mom but ended up repeating history.  How can I change this?

You need to be posting your mother's chart and synastry bi wheel from astro and post these in Western Reading forum

Just at first glance your sun and moon are square which suggests your parents were divided and/or divorced, your moon is square mars sugggesting a very bossy mother (which then you become like this) Moon square Uranus is break with mother and also on my list of 'divorce aspects'


When a sun sign is conjunct a heavyweight planet from Saturn onwards, ie: Uranus, Neptune and Pluto, that sun person automatically becomes and honorary Saturian, Uranian, Neptunian and Plutonian cos the contact with very strong

Your sun conj Uranus suggest gives you a strong Aquarius/Uranus flavour and impatience and wanting to do something unusual that involves the price and ego. Cafeastrology will interpret all your natal aspects