Hi,

I am having the most emotionally difficult past 2 years of my life. This is involving 2 relationships. I am so confused and depressed now that I have literally 'lost myself'.
I feel trapped, lost and on the verge of an emotional melt down.
Can anyone shed any light onto what is happening in my life.
Anything would be most appreciated.
sincerely.
My birthdate is  January 8th 1971   10.20 AM London England.

I have removed your two other request...since they all are the same.

I move this to the Reading forum...I assume it is your chart you will have investigatet....not Weteren Astrology in general

Whenever there is something going on for a year or more, the problem is usually related to one of the outer planets, the slow moving ones.  I think that's what happening here.  You are currently in a Neptune square Mars transit.  This can create all kinds of difficult energies, because neptune can affect your subconscious...feelings and behavior that you have no understanding of why you're acting or feeling a certain way.  Add in Mars, and it gets a little more complicated, because mars is the planet of energy and action.  But, teamed up with neptune, and that mars energy has no where to go.  So what?  

This can lead to frustration, anxiety, depression (especially!), physical illnesses, etc.  Since this has been going on for awhile, since Neptune occasionally goes retrograde, its effects can last a few years.  The good news is that it's in the process of leaving.  So you'll get a break from its effects.  You'll especially notice feeling better around Christmas.

By the end of December, some of that energy that has been sitting there, unconsciously, is going to start working its way to the surface so you'll be more aware of the things that have been bothering you...deep down.  Beginning around the end of January 2009, you'll have the strength and energy to start making changes in your life that have needed to be made for a long time.  This will take a couple of years, and at this time, you'll begin to be aware of what isn't working.  Take your time, just start noticing what's really been bothering you.  In about 8 months, it will be the time to make those changes.  (Pluto square Pluto).  Slowly, and bit by bit, you will have more chances to make the changes you need to make in your life as Pluto goes direct/retrograde/direct over the next two years.  Take care expressing these changes, though.  You don't have to tear everything down explosively; you can do it with thoughtfulness and conscious choices (mars opp pluto April 2009).

By the end of February 2009, you will find things running noticeably smoother.  There isn't any real major difficult transits again during the next 6 months.  That isn't to say your life will all be beautiful and wonderful, but it will be much smoother.  If you allow it, you will find yourself much happier.  I said if you allow it, because you can get caught in negative patterns...let them go, and enjoy the better times, because they are coming.  By the way, there is a chance for a romance during this time, too, if you are looking for one.  If not, you'll find yourself looking for a little more excitement than usual.

I prefer that those asking questions NOT post a chart, because I do my own.  In this way, I can look at progressions and current transits and I don't have to try to get used to whatever website's chart that person got their chart from.  It's a matter of preference, but I'm just mentioning this, so others will not think that posting a chart is necessary...in some cases, it just uses baudwidth that isn't needed.  Thanks!  

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