I understand what you exactly mean to say Mythseeker.
I'm a scorpio rising,scorpio sun and scorpio moon. Its an extreme situation I know...and since I'd learnt to think (pretty young perhaps around age 7), I've faced the cruel hardship and pain of life and been victim of many abuses.
Growing up and in my teens, I see myself as the bitter deadly serpent who was filled with poison n would inflict the same to others. Tragic events, uncomprising tests of life and I became one day I think - - the gray lizard who'd been victimised by fate, circumstances and I learnt to believe in just darkness.
Then a year ago, I'd thought I'd kill myself when I'd lost everyone and everything in my life and believe me I'm just 25. That event led me to raise myself ...........I never knew I had such strength left in my life.....but I raised myself from the burnt ashes of my dead soul ..........to become the person I am today- a Dove I believe who only knows what love is. I believe only in love, miracles, happiness, in giving, helping those who don't have anyone, who are helpless. Yes, perhaps I'm a dove. Now, I live just for others and to help and to serve gives me the most beautiful satisfaction and I'm happy now alone, or with everyone. Never been so happy and peace with myself
Perhaps its true........you can experience the depth of ocean only by hitting the bottom rock.......you can understand the true value of life only when you experience the depth of pain..........
Love & Light
Lucky