hello,

i am doom since 2003 since a very difficult separation from my ex-girlfriend which ruined me to the utmost of darkness. IF YOU  ARE MEDIUM, PRIEST OF BAAL, ASTROLOGERS anything sort of visionaries man, you can see in past all the ordeals, upheavals, failures i had to face...
lost of home, friends, lovers, cars, i have had accident bad health etc... misfotune is my closest friend i have to deal with...

YET, i am still alive because i have a little llight of hope still shining but i am watching her dying. SO please help...iknow i have tremendous skills and inner power but i cannot apply them wit hso much ennemies and bad fortune, and ordeals always killing my optimism and ruining my hope. I am fed up!

i am born 30 march 1979 5:00 PM in Montpellier(france)(3e53, 43n36)

Thank you for all your insights and positive comments on my chart, transit etc... please just need some support

i may not be giving you astrology reading. but i am also person who has gone thru similar situation 3 years back. but i have returned back with determination to fight and belief in god.

i will share you what i have done

1. draw quadrant. x axis is horizontal line and y axis vertical line which divides into 4 quadrants Q1, Q2,Q3,Q4 ( in clockwise direction). make list of worries you have .Q1 shud have short term ( less than one month) worries, Q2 should have medium term worries ( upto 1 year), Q3 long term worries ( upto 10 years backward and forward). Now in Q4 write down the biggest/important  worry in order from the listed worries of Q1,Q2, Q3

2 draw another quadrant. Here list goals in your life. Q1 has short term goals(  < 1 month), Q2 has medium term goal, Q3 has long term goal. In Q4 write important goals from the list made from Q1 ,Q2 , Q3 and Q4

3 draw another  quadrant . Here you write down influencers in your life . Q1 contains persons from parents, siblings. Q2 contains friends/relatives, Q3 contains persons you encounter in daily life with whom you have no relationships ( colleagues in work area, business partners etc). In Q4 list down top 3 people who make positive influence and negative influences.
once you done keep away from negative influencers. increase relation with positive influencers

4. Draw another set of quadrants.  write down list of people whom you consider as leaders/mentors ( follow their principles, way of living etc). Q1 has people from parents/friends/relatives, Q2 has people from your religion/place/state/country, q3 has people from outside your country. In Q4 write down top 4 mentors you considers from the list made. What kind of influences they make.

With these 4 list you have bit of fair idea about what is happening in your life. now you think how do you go about life now on.  pray god ( jesus/allah or any god of your religion) daily in morning after taking bath. Think positive "All is well".  keep tab on the goals you have listed. keep worries out of your head. as time progresses you would have made positive progress in life

astro_scholr,

I loved your post though I did not read fully... but it did seem to make a lot of sense. Thanks for being on this forum.

i think your replies need that i justify myself a little bit more.

the idea grid is a really good idea.nevertheless i am going little further to explain my mind. This thing work with many people but not for someone like me, when i am in front of such grid nothing came up to my mind except the sorrow of a finite feeling which make me live this grid blank with only more bitterness. i am too much cerebral for this kind of thing with my saturn conjunct ascendant in virgo(western astrology) that just is an escalation of rationalism and pragmatism i have innately hypertrophied in myself. I search BEYOND meaning, more intuitive approach to let flow of universe run in me otherwise i won't be in such forum plus if maybe someone with some skills(other word that make me sick though) in vedic astrology can see that i have Jupiter in pushya star nakshatra, that thing said, probaly some of you here will be led to sense much of me, my purpose and destiny to be told to someone like me.


astro_scholr, i don't attack in anyway your good suggestion and i take it in consideration but i want answer from transcendantal technique to break my excessive rationalism though astrology is very technical and lie on rationalism too...plus i am too much aware of what kind of unconscious programmation things like grid is going to implement in myself and that make me roar..yes i am an uranian(uranus in the 3rd house in western astro) who break all scheme..oh my god i am so tired...

Anyway if i don't get answer from those yet who want to help people with astrology and i think they spend a lot of time to learn and make reading with some accuracy, i am going probably going to some regression, that's i want the very plutonian way, the plutonian style who hate dictionnary any code and values, refuse any kind of things living, or maybe some shamanic regression and re-ensavaging method like did Henry David thoreau who lived in a hut and then say life is too complexx simplify simplify simplify, but i don't want to act this way it doesn't represent my greatness..

when i read myself there is so much vanity(kind of virgo thing in western astrology), i sound so arrogant thing from pushya nakshatra maybe!

i am so bothered...