i am under a lot of stress...i get angry a lot and i am dissatisfied at people around me...all those people who bought me up are now my enemies..just because they take sides with those people who always interfere and speak 2 languages..one in font of me and one when i am not around...am i going through crisis..i cannot take it anymore..will i come out of it..i am over worked and as such have no time or interest in anything else in life..every day i have thoughs of giving up my life as i feel i am a burden on people even though i earn my keep

my dob is 15:03:1971
time is 03:45 am app.
place of birth..bombay

Well, this comes as tough love:  suck it up, take a deep breath, and move on one foot infront of the other.  According to the age you have entered, you are 38; yet, what you describe is adolescense.  Do not fall into the games, they are of yesteryears.  Tell yourself what you would tell your child in a situation like this.  I have been there, and to give into childish bickering is to give into ignorance; when what we really need to do is pickup our bottom lips and realize that if we just go on about our business and not concern ourselves with what other's think, we will do a lot better for ourselves.  Do you live your life for you?  Or for them?  Do you breathe air for you?  Or to help them live?  It's your life; take it back and quit letting people into your "space" that are going to be a bacteria to the negativity that is already there.

Dear KnPh123

I have had a look at your chart. I can see the neecha sani who is the lagna lord also in the 4th house and the Sani Dasa has started from Mar 2008. I would expect that around that time frame you would have seen the Sani Dev in full action. To Top it up there is a curse of a spouse in your chart and hence the suffering in relationships is seen. Mangal in the house is akin to mangalik dosha and hence you are also prone to anger in your relationships.  All that pretty well describes the situation that you have painted in your initial post.

Now lets look at the ways to get out of this. These are tough times by friend but you have to try to your best and look at the bigger picture as suggested bi Ianna. I would suggest you to start reading the Gita. That will help you settle down a bit and understand how this world works.

There are some mantras and remedies that i can suggest that will help minimize the influence.

1. Go to  Ganesha temple and do abhishekam of Ganpati. Also give some dakshina to the lord for this reading.
2. Wear a diamond in your right hand middle finger on a friday and start to worship goddess lakshmi every day. I would suggest a good stotra like the Maha lakshmi Ashtakam storam or some mantra for the goddess. meditate every day for atleast 15 ~ 20 minutes on the viija "Shriim" Chant it slowly and feel the energy coming from your abdoman to your head. That will help you immensly. A simple mantra for the goddess is "Om Shriim Mahalakshmiye Namah"
3. Donate a picture of Lord Hanumaan in a temple on a Monday.
4. After taking a bath in the morning and puuting your clothes on, put a white sandle wood tilak under your neck and chant this mantra 108 times "astikam munirajam namo namah" This is a mantra for lord Dattatreya and specifically for the sarpa dosha in your chart.

These simple remedies will take not more than a few minutes everyday but will help your connect with yourself and lead a happier life

Remember, you were born alone and will die alone and u are not the body but the soul inside. That soul will move on after this life and will have a new name and new set of bodies around you. So dont get stuck in the situation, just like a child who is deeply moved when his toy is broken or cant see his mother around him. We all know that the mother is in the other room and so the crying is useless. Similarly, the people you call your own are only bondages in this life cause you mind percieves tehm taht way. so wake up my friend and stop expecting from the world. The golden rule is "If you happiness is someone elses hand you have a big problem"

So get up and fight dear Arjuna.

Hari Om Tat Sat

Tarun

thanks a lot..
I am doing 2-3 jobs everyday..I also serve in voluntary capacity...That way i lead a very very busy life..
sometimes i am so very tired that i cannot take it...
I am in a joint family where i am answerable to my sister inlaws who have a mind of their own..I have never in my life been able to stand up for myself as i was always the eldest and hence was alwys asked to behave..
I feel that for how long can i push myself to prove to people?????
I sometimes think abt giving up my life
Infact i had tried it even before my marriage...i got married and then was the worst experience of my life..on top of it my sister inlaw commented that i will have to be beared upon..i am so unable to come to terms with betrayals that i ...just can't go on...
i am too tired of life

"If you happiness is someone elses hand you have a big problem"