Dear Jaidixit,
This is not a astrology reading, but I was compelled to write.
First if all..I can see you are very serious about transformimg yourself, That is great, beacuse half the job is already done.
Anger- as I understand and have been guided comes from a feeling of rejection, Huge ego too comes in to defend ourselves, Loneliness is because we feel we are not wanted. You can change all this for yourself.
1. Feel loved and wanted, beacuse existence loves you. Many a times misery is caused because we humans need love, do not feel wanted. But we are wanted and loved. We can be and are given many oppurtunites to see how well we are looked after, but the 'mind' by nature is negative and repetitve, and only looks for what we do not have. Train the mind....meditate. If you worship anybody- pray with a totality, and beg for guidance. God as I know is full of love, and very generous..you only have to ask. Bhakti can work miracles.
2. The concept of ' life' as you portray it...miserable , painful etc is simply a projection of your mind. As such the universe...good or evil( your concepts) is in total harmony, and if you
allow yourself you can be in harmony as well.
3. Very often and almost always pain and misery is created beacuse our mind remains either in the past or the future. The past is dead and will
never come back, whereas the future does not exist, only created in your head.
Simpy try and be in the moment. I know it is tricky but
remind yourself regularly.
Yoga is great, and I believe the purpose of yoga too is to merge you in ' oneness'. And you will make great dad, just because you are trying so hard !
Cheers
