First let me start by saying that Vedic Astrology has changed my life. I'm beginning to understand the true nature of Karma and to an extent Im beginning to understand who I am. I've been trying to learn to understand the charts of myself and my family members, but its still so confusing. Which brings me to my problems.

For the last five years I have been in a living hell. I''ve been diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder. If this isn't bad enough I suffer from out of body experiences, precognition, strange dreams, hallucinations, visions that come true and all kinds of other weird experiences. I have insomnia, anxiety disorder, heart palpitations, chest pains and severe nervouseness. The doctors have found abnormalities in my EKG but cannot identify why. I have severe acid reflux, vomiting and Irritable Bowel Syndrome, low blood pressure to the extent of vertigo and fainting and I am prone to painful ovarian cysts that burst. As of two weeks ago I lost the feeling in my legs and hands, went to the neurologist and podiatrist and they found nothing wrong. I'm on crutches right now. I can't walk.

The terrible thing is that once upon a time I was normal, well adjusted and completely grounded.  I graduated with Honors from University, was healthy and vivacious, was the editor of my college newspaper and vice president of everything on campus. I was very popular with the opposite sex though I've always had an issue with sexual dysfunction. Overall I was doing very well for myself and had a high level of achievement and everyone was proud of me. But now, all that is over. I stay home with no friends, no money and severely ill.  I dont have a career, and sometimes I am so depressed from being sick that I can't get out of bed. I am however, writing a book which is very difficult cause I have no concentration. I understand that my mercury in the 11th, Aquarius may be combust and I wonder if this may be the source of some of my problems. If it is combust does this mean I will not publish?

Anyway my mother takes care of me because I cannot work and sometimes have memory loss. She is my eternal historian, my best friend and keeps me on track. We were told that ours is a karmic relationship as my moon is in the 8th house of scorpio. She already suffers greatly because of my condition, but does the moon placement indicate worse suffering? I don't want that. I love my mother than anything. She does everything for me and one day I want to give her the world.

Anyhow, I am so tired of being sick. i feel like Ive lost some of my best years and all of my potential I once had is just draining away. My problems started in 2002 and now its 2007 and I just had another birthday, Im 29 and I am still sick, and I always become symptomatic when the moon is waxing to full, up to three days prior. It makes me want to cry. An advisor told me that I am supposed to be spiritual and study the occult to get better and healthy. Bah Humbug, I dont want to believe this. Im hoping that thats not true because I just want to be normal. Even in the realm of love I seem to have bad luck. It seems my hardest life lessons have come from the opposite sex. I have had much trauma in this area and I wonder if it's karmic.

I once did a puja to the planets when things were extremely bad. I kept leaving my body, hallucinating, vomiting and having terrible spiritual experiences. The priests at the temple said I was having a problem with ancestors or something. Anyhow after the puja my issues died down for a while.  Things got bad again and now theres noone at the temple that speaks English

My point is that I just want to be okay without all this physical, emotional and mental pain. I want to get married to the man that I love and just be happy and healthy, get published or at least establish myself somewhere in life and stand on my own feet, ultimately giving my parents a good life. I saw that Gulika/Maandi was in my 2nd house and I fear that that will ruin any chance of me ever making money. Of course, I dont know what the heck Im doing, so I know I should not attempt to interpret things I do not understand.

Can someone please help me?Sorry so long, I get overemotional and longwinded and of course my thoughts maybe disjointed. If you've managed to read all of this I am so grateful. Please forgive me I know I may sound like a babbling idiot, but I've just been dealing with alot for awhile and I truly want some guidance.

My info is as follows:

March 1, 1978
9:18 A.M.
Miami Beach FL
Lat: 25.47N Longitude 80.8W
Lagna: Aries
Rashi: Scorpio

Thank you so much again for your time, attention and consideration.

Dear Jenee,

Om Gam Ganpataye Namah.

For the sake of clarity, did your health issues surface after April 18, 2002? I ask because:

1. Mercury is your 6th lord (health), placed in the nakshatra of Rahu and debilitated in D-9.

2. You're running the MD of Mercury, an unhelpful planet for your lagna, and unfortunately Mercury has attained maximum Shadbala.

3. Rahu is in the 6th house, giving health issues that are either difficult to diagnose or, if diagnosed, difficult to cure in the short term.

4. Therefore, when you ran the dasa of Mer-Rah-Mer your health issues may have surfaced.

5. Moon, karaka for Mind, in the 8th is prone to give out-of-body body experiences, precognition, strange dreams, hallucinations, visions since it is exaggerated by being in the natural 8th sign of Scorpio.

6. The good news is that lagnesh Mars is Vargottama and will help you recover once this MD is over.

Expect relief after September 2008 when you will certainly publish and do well for yourself. Ketu will give you the results of dispositor and Bhagyesh Jupiter, placed in the 3rd house of writing, publishing, etc. and will make you increasingly spiritual. Keep the faith and stay strong.

God bless

Dear AJ,

Thank you so much for your guidance. I must admit that you are precise in the timing of my affliction. I graduated from college May 2002, and the day after I crossed the stage was the day I had my first collapse and black out episode. From this day forward I have been sick. I understand now that I have been running in a malefic cycle, as my mercury Dasa has been truly wicked to me, but I still wonder about the upcoming Ketu cycle. Isn't Ketu a malefic as well? I understand that Jupiter is the dispositer of Ketu, but how do we determine the good effects from Jupiter and the naturally detrimental effects of Ketu?

As for Mr. Pravin Kumar, I truly appreciate your insight. I have a fairly decent grasp on how the mind works, and through my comprehension of this, I have become a positive person. I am an advocate of the theory that we can create our own outcomes through the power of positivity and visualization and I believe that if I was unable to do this, I would have probably met my demise already. As for doctors opinions, I dont allow them to effect me to any severe degree because they deal strictly on a scientific level, and by contrast I have ventured into the realm of spirituality and metaphysics, an area that they can rarely understand. I continue to keep my faith believing that I will one day be whole. Thank you again for your time and consideration.

A very "sad" story indeed....I can't give you any reading....but I want to ask you a question.....did you around that time start on any medic ?

The reason for my question is that something like that happen to me and was due to a cholestrol lower tablets.

They had "fat" solutions and was taken up in the brain and made me have a lots of phobias and other nasty thoughts....I almost killed myself....but it was I who found out that it had to be a medic that caused it... later I got agreement from the doc that such thing could happen and I had to take water solutions med.

I wish you good luck