So i am actually glad no one responded because i figured some things out, but in order to get closure, i was hoping to get a reading on something.

I just want to know what the purpose was, for the relationship i had with my fellow sag? If it was just a lesson, which in all this time i am still searching for, if i meant anything at all, or if was their lesson?

I will do a reading as well, in exchange, just let me know

I am afraid, in my experience and the way I look at the tarot, a reading will not reveal the answer to your question.
Many times, after a certain experience, we fail to see why it all happened and what was the purpose or, as you call it, the lesson in it for us. The answer(s) take time to reach us and the realisation will sooner or later come to us. Please do not torture yourself for what if and if any lesson or message a particular experience had for you. I am sure it had something, but the question 'why' and 'what' is am sure subconsciously imprinted within you and I bet you the next time you have a similar experience or an encounter, bells will start ringing in your head

Hope this makes sense to you Anetta

Hugs and blessings to you.

Hi

I am laying out 3 cards for you and will give you my intuition of the reading.

Eight of swords reversed
This card fortunately enough points to looking back at any trauma or hardship of the past in better hopes of coming to terms with our actions of the future.Sometimes it pertains to letting go of old attachments or feelings.The feelings need not be "I'm still in love with so and so" but rather "I still hate so and so".Perhaps its time to examine these negative feelings and resentment so you can heal your spirit and be the best person you can for your future mates.Use this time you have to empower yourself and diminish un-healthy resentments and attachments to feelings and situations.

Princess of cups
This card in my opinion for your situation points to being a bit of a restless person who likes excitement.When things get boring,or nothing is going on,you tend to stir up movement.Doesn't have to be actual movement,but could be movement in your mind.Perhaps your thinking of these things because life seems to be a bit quiet and you have some time on your hands.Thinking of past relationships could be good for us,as they help point out lessons or failures we can work to improve on.But thinking restlessly on things of the past could cause you to be a in stagnation like still-ness that prevents you from moving on,where is the lesson in that?.If things seem unclear to you,add it to the pile of things that dont make sense in the world,and move on.You can create excitement another way,but leave the puzzles and solid answers behind.Not many people ever get those.Perhaps your lesson is knowing not everything makes sense,and some people come and go without reason.

four of disks
Again this card re-enforces holding on to un-healthy obsessions,or fears and anxiety.You really must let go of this search for wisdom in regards to the relationship.The lesson may seem quite unsatisfying,even if you were to encompass it.Instead of devoting any more time or energy into that direction,aim it to something more profound and productive.

*Also perhaps this relationship jolted you when the break happened.You may have felt quite secure and safe for a time being,and being thrown from one place to another in quick succession leads to feeling hurt,depressed,even betrayed.nothing wrong with mourning a bit.But you must get up,and eventually step out of your comfort zone in time,to attract new people.

All in all,you might be missing out on a lot of happiness,and new interests,because your energy is focused on figuring out the past.Leave this behind now,free yourself,and charge forward with determination,strength,and the knowledge and assurance that you aren't in a relationship with an unstable person.(just think if this were to happen long into the relationship,or after a marriage/children) cut your losses,and start over.Your free from him and that's all that matters.

Hope this makes sense.Good luck and much blessings

This does make sense and its helpful in a time where I was just shutting down instead of starting over, you put me at ease and i thank you for your time