Hello Cedars i was hoping you would be so kind to give me a reading? Im in DESSPPATE need of outlook in my life right now. Everything in my life is going so so awfully wrong mostly withing the past month. First is with my family im 23 and live at home with my mom and dad WAY out in the country. I train horses with my dad, just last week i find out my parents are splitting up and selling our house, the only home ive ever known. i live in kansas and my dad is moving to texas and taking my horses with him, the one thing that means the world to me and moving with him i just cant do. there for my mom and i have to move to town where i have never lived my whole life ive always been in the country where you dont see other peoples houses. 2nd my boyfrien of 2 years who i loved so much did the worst thing ever to me. he lives a few hours from me so we dont see eachother much because of money and so on. well a few weeks ago he sent me a picture over the phone of him and another girl in bed and said alot of mean things like telling me to kill myself. but since thenhe has been trying to talk to me telling me how sorry he is and that he loved me and only me and that it was a one night stand thing and he only did it because he thought i said i had someone else whae really i was asking him that well like i said he has been trying so hard to get me back and everything even saying he would move back to be with mei kept telling him no. well 2 days ago i got a voicemail on my phone from a girls say that she was his girlfriend of 7 months and that they live together and that she knew about me the whole time and all that when i had no clue about her and that the only reason she was telling me this now was because when she goy home he was gone and my address was on the table and i didnt know he was or whybut the whole 7 months they has been together he has talked to me every day telling me he loves me and all that. he was pretty much living a double life and it hurts SO bad i had to go to the Dr. to get something to help with all that im feeling and it doesnt work  and one bad thing keeps happening one right after the other and im just not ok i feel like im dieing inside amd all this doesnt seem like it is going to stop, so i was hoping you could give me a reading for what may come withing the next few months for me and see maybe if the cards will say thing look like they will turn around for me soon and i dont have to hurt anymore maybe a new guy will be coming into my life or something good is coming to mebecause like i said all that has happen has crushed me and id give anythimg for things to change and i can have some peace and happiness. Thank you so much and i hope the cards have some insight for me    my name is Amanda Culbertson and my b-day is 8-11-87

Dear MandyLee

So sorry to hear about the turn of events in your life. You have my full sympathy.

In the case of the man in your life – and I hope this is already in the past tense – I feel you do not need a reading. You don’t need a reading to tell you that this man is no good for you and does not deserve you. You should run as far away from him as you can. Ignore his phone calls, text messages, his sentimental expressions; just get away from him and close the door behind you. Does this sound painful? Perhaps it is, but in hindsight it should be less painful than the way he has treated you. He does not deserve you MandyLee and you deserve much, much better. Of course, the choice is yours and any reading about his behaviour would, in my opinion, be futile.
You say in your post “my boyfriend of two years”, but in your previous thread you mentioned you had met a guy from your childhood and you were together for a couple of months. Are you talking about this same person? Nevertheless, whoever you are talking about does not deserve you and should not be allowed to treat someone they say they loved this way.
Regarding your family situation and the impending separation of your parents and the split of the family unit, I am so sorry to hear about that. Your dilemma as who you should go with and the new life that may be unfolding in front of you in a totally new environment must be quite daunting for you. We cannot change or interfere in the decision of your parents. All we can do here is concentrate on you. There seems to be a lot of confusion – and rightly so – in your life right now and I am not surprised you are looking for some light at the end of the tunnel.  MandyLee, from what I feel, the situation is still unfolding in your life and any new light for you may be taking some time until your parents sort themselves out and for you to decide which side you should lean on.

For your reading I am using the Rider Waite deck.

P e r s o n a l challenge right now: Two of Wands.
We see a man holding a globe in his hand and looking ahead into the horizon. He has one wand securely fastened to the wall and holding another one with his other hand. There is a duality of choices to be made here – between one thing or the other – and once that choice has been made, the only way forward would be to look ahead with a view to conquer what comes ahead by way of troubles and successes. Perhaps it is hard for you to see in your current stage, but every turn of events has a positive aspect to it as well. In your mind you know one of the options is unshakable and you need not worry about it;  and the second one you are holding on firmly and imagining and looking forward to the future. As I write this to you, I sense you don’t feel that way, but given time you may see things differently MandyLee. As I said before, the events have hardly started unfolding in your life and there may be a lot to go through for you and your parents. But, believe me, you have choices and whatever choice you make, I also feel will be to your best. You love both your parents and also you love your horses; difficult to choose. Wait for life to unfold in front of you and those choices will gradually become easier to make.

Relationship challenge right now: King of Swords.
The king of swords is a man of strong will and not ruled by his heart. He is just, intelligent and gives guidance based on logic and common sense rather than emotions. He can be shrewd and will say it as it is without turning corners. He will raise his sword and fight whoever crosses him and he will also defend his loved ones with that same force and mental agility. Is this a person in your life who is being protective towards you in your relationship challenges or is this king telling you to adopt these qualities in order to meet those challenges?  I think you know which is which in this case.

What holds you back? Nine of Pentacles.
We see a woman here who is taking a leisurely walk in her garden whilst holding a bird of prey in one hand and feeling the safety of her financial stability on the other. This is a woman who is content with her life’s achievements and money is no longer a priority for her. She is enjoying the money and giving herself the pampering that she so much needs and deserves. And yet she is not complacent about anything that he has achieved and currently owns. You may have been used to a disciplined life; life which had its routines, money may have not been an issue for you to worry about, and now you have to use your own expertise and what you have learnt to your own advantage. I feel I need to say to you, that if you dwell too much on what was or what you had and knowing that it will be not be there anymore, you may not be able to move forward; it will hold you back. But, you should also realise that like this woman in the Nine of Pentacles, you have not wasted your life in your previous experiences. You have plenty of discipline to start afresh and make something of your own life, whichever path you wish you take.

What motivates you? Eight of Cups.
Let go and move on. We see a man here who has left behind eight cups which are standing upright and knowing well they do not serve any purpose anymore for him; he leaves them behind and goes off searching for new opportunities and to start afresh. Perhaps you may come to the realisation that it is time to go alone and do things independently. Do not be hasty as a result of this reading and let life start bringing to you the right opportunities to take certain actions. I cannot stress enough, MandyLee, that things have just started changing in your life and there may be more light and clarity to enter your life once you get into terms of what has been going on both in your family and personal life.

Where will you get support? Ten of Wands.
From yourself is the first word that comes to me. Here we see a man carrying ten wands – a heavy weight – and moves forward, sometimes without seeing what lies ahead of him, but goes on to a destination which he fought for on his own and will achieve his goal despite the  heavy burden that he is carrying.  This may sound daunting that the support you will get will be due to your own hard work and your past experience,  but the taste of success and completion will be that much more enjoyable, don’t you think?

What decisions you need to make based on these so far? Ace of Pentacles.
It sounds to me the decision will be made for you by the universe. All Aces stand for new beginnings, a new surge of energy, passion, love, strength and opportunities. The Ace of Pentacles is no different and it stands for new beginnings – almost like a gift from the universe – in the area of  matters related to our earthly, financial and material needs. This can be a new job prospect, new project coming ahead for you to venture into, a new path in which you can use your talents and experiences. It is a very positive card, like all the other Aces,  and I see it almost being the result of the preceding card – Ten of Wands.

The Outcome: Strength.
Oh, how nice to finish a reading with a Major Arcana card! This – as the name suggests – is that inner strength that you will be blessed with, as we see the woman in this card, adorned with wreaths, taming the lion fearlessly without using any physical strength. The outcome of your trials and tribulations, whilst perhaps unavoidable ManydLee, will bless you with that inner strength that money cannot buy. Within yourself, you will feel strong and able to confront anything that life throws at you and isn’t this what you may really need when this phase of your life comes to a completion?
I hope this reading made sense to you and it gave you the insight that you were looking for. I know you asked the question if there would be a new man in your life..... I feel the universe gave you the answers that you need to know at this stage in your life. Of course, we can take it or leave it any reading given to us, as free human beings we all have the right to choose.

I do feel though you will be fine once the storm and the challenges are conquered MandyLee.

Let me know what you think.

Blessings to you.

Thank you Cedars so much with all thats going on it feels so much better to just talk about it with someone. As you said with another post i had i said i had met a guy from my childhood and started dating, I did. The man i was with for 2 years was acting different which kinda told me something was up with him so i was trying to just live a life and i had met a guy i went to school with on Facebook and we started talk and then dating the whole time though the man i was with for 2 years still had my heart and we still talked some. Well my new guy cheated on me with his ex girlfriend and she also had text me a picture of them in bed naked together. . . So the man i was with for 2 years, we talked and got back together because i never really did lose my feelings for him then he did the same as that girl, sent me a picture of him and a girl who later told me was just a one night stand thing but as i said a few days ago i found out that that girl was his girlfriend of 7 months who he lived with. I just feel so beat down everything just keeps happening so fast one right after another i feel lost and dead inside. The situation with my mom and dad i feel a little better about because i know no matter what they are always going to be my mom and dad. But the whole thing with the man i was with for 2 years was like the last thing for me i feel so broken because if anything  he was like my best friend and i feel so betreayed and alone i would give anything to just noth feel andything for him . . How do you know when the univers notices you? I just dont know how im going to pick myself up and try again

You will have the Strength to do so ManyLee, as it said in your reading.

you take it easy. You do not need those guys around you. You have other priorities in your life now

All the best to you.

You did not say how the reading resonated with you though