I'm so sorry Cedars for such the late response!!

I read what you wrote and just printed it out so that I can actually read it :0 and have it sink in. I do promise to give you a reply again within the next few minutes.

Thank you Cedars!!!

Not to worry; take your time

Hi again Cedars,

I have some feedback for you regarding your reading.... First, I want to thank you for your time... and I appreciate your thoughts in the year's reading... and I agree.

About me now:  Yes, yes and yes again. I am in such an excessive emotional and sentimental state right now. I always day dream and fantasize for some reason, and when life goes the complete opposite way, I get this way. It happens in every area of my life.... I am definitely that water that you wrote about that gets carried away with the flow of things. As far as "knowing" or having a premonition of things to come, well, sometimes I do. However, what I am going through now, I did not think it would be like this. I saw and felt something that was completely different. I still feel that way, so my over-emotional state of mind is confusing. Or perhaps I am still hoping and wishing?

About the present and foreseeable future: I'm not quite sure what family bliss you are referring to. You said the Ten of Cups stands for the ultimate in happiness in the area of love and family, but I'm confused. Over the past 4 months, my family has endured some pretty serious sickness, resulting in hospitalization and surgeries.... But only recently have they begun to recover. Day by day. I wouldn't call this ultimate happiness or bliss.. more like a relief. Maybe this is not the area you intended, but that's the only thing I could think of as far as family is concerned. In the area of love, well, let's just say that relates to the "now" area, so ultimate happiness in love doesn't exist for me right now. The Ten of Wands looks correct. I carry the load in everything I do. It's hard for me to delegate, so I just do it all. I don't think there is one particular area of my life that this card applies to.. more like a general all-purpose card  But you were right on with your interpretation of having the Ten of Cups next to the Ten of Wands... the situation I am in definitely has emotional responsibilities tied to it. And the Three of Swords following, well, lets say, I wish was not there. But it is. Heartbreak and parting of ways was in fact right on at the present time. If these three cards were to point to love and relationships, well then it happened at the time you did the reading. If the cards were to point to the short term future, then maybe there something I need to think about so that I can either prevent it or prepare for it. So these are a bit confusing for me.

As far as the further future, well I am glad those three cards came up. When you say that fear and doubt are a state of mind, do you mean that I am actually creating more than what is really there? There will always be fear and doubt, but I think my hardest road block is to just let it go. To give it to God. For some reason, I can't. I don't know why. Giving it time will indeed start making sense.. It's just so hard not to "dwell" or make it a constant thought in my head... that makes time go by so slow, and makes it hurt even more. I am hoping the Justice card will bring to light a feeling of safety as well. I am happy for this card! As far as the Star card, I am very happy... To know that there is hope to live and try for, well, I'm thinking it doesn't apply to the particular person that I have parted with, but more along the lines that says I will be okay. I will get through this heartache and actually come out in a better place. I'm thinking I just have to apply my fantasies and day dreaming into my waking life. For isn't our fantasies something we desire and long for?

I guess I will just let time heal all wounds. Once I feel the energy, it'll be  time to pull myself up and start the journey. So what I am feeling completely matched the cards. I was hoping I was just going through a nightmare, and would wake up to find it didn't really happen, but I guess not  As long as I know that I will get over this, I will keep my head high. I just wish my heart didn't ache so much, and that would answer your question as to whether I could stop the heartache or not...

Thank you Cedars... you are wonderful! You have helped me more than you know.

My dear CaliforniaGilrz

thank you very much for your kind feedback and I am humbled to think that this reading has been of help to you.

I chose this spread because it is a general one and it sometimes touches points (especially in the first section) you may or may not be aware of. It is very subtle - that first group of cards: things which may be happening at present or their energies coming into your life soon. I chose three cards in order to get not one picture but a few going on around your life.
As for the Ten of Cups, we can look at this as an energy emerging and coming into your life, as you said yourself your family is on the way to recovery.

Yes, with the Moon, that is a phase that hits us all whether it is of your making or due to the events around you. But it is a passive state of mind; it will pass. Think of it as some kind of depression which has a time span and it will go away.  It is difficult to let go my dear one; you are not alone there, but Justice promises balance and equilibrium to come your way sooner than you think. And make with the Star what you will for it will be your guiding star for the future.

You WILL get over this and you know you will my dear friend.

Big hugs from me and many blessings to you.