Help for reading please. i'm male and i need reading for my career and romance ! thanx in advance !
DOB = 16 02 82

I'm kinda feel like the unluckiest person in the whole universe ! why ? because no one ever-ever truly belief what i said, everyone always questioning every word i said, doubting me, i'm being ignore all the time, even this reading request or in another thread or in another website is always the same, no one give me a reading, although some has give me a reading but it always just short reading ! Is this my destiny, to be the unluckiest person ! Tell me ?

My dear Verisme

Sorry it has taken us such a long time to give you a reading and I do not believe the world has turned against you.

I will do my best to post a reading for you today.

Hugs

Hello Verisme

Before I lay the cards, I wanted to link in with you on a different level. As I did so, I got the feeling that in spite of the way you describe yourself or your life, I see you as an outgoing and a gregarious person and I am wondering why things have been this way for you. I get the feeling that when you want to, you can be the centre of attention, the life of the party, fun-loving, people around you, etc, and then something triggers you and you sort of go into seclusion. I can’t help feel that when you go into that recluse phase, you don’t consider yourself as being worthwhile to someone’s attention. Whether you do that as soon as you get some attention, or after a period of being the life of the party…… I get the feeling that you say to yourself.. May be I’ve gone too far, and I need to retreat.
I just get this feeling on one hand you can be all bubbly and gregarious and the next minute something overcomes you and you just go into a corner, waiting for things to come to you I suppose. I cannot pinpoint as to why you do that. I get the feeling that perhaps you have low confidence in yourself that whatever is coming your way you don’t allow it to materialise. Almost like sabotaging the possibilities? This is the feeling I am getting and the more you do that, the more you will start conveying the message both to the people around you and to the universe that you do not deserve what you want or what might be coming your way.

I am going to use a spread which looks at the general trends around you and hopefully gives you some insight. It is called: Who I am and where I am going?

Deck: Rider Waite.

1. Who I am now?
The Moon.
An element of delusion, despair and a general feeling of despair surround you right now. Whilst you may know which path to take, you are constantly questioning if it is the right path for you. You mistrust any guidance given to you from your surroundings and there are times you feel the pressure as though being stuck between two rocks. The moon is cyclical, it goes through phases and it is never constant. By the same token, I would like to assure you that your current state of mind is temporary too. You will get these moments or days when you will feel overwhelmed by its incapacitating influence, but rest assured, it will pass.

2. What I don’t know about myself.
Two of Wands.
A man of vision, aspirations and great ambitions. As the suit of the Wands suggests, you have passion and the creativity of mind to achieve great things. You have the ability to making a choice and sticking by it until the results come home. However, it is no surprising with the influence of the Moon above, you are not aware of these qualities about yourself. I feel the influence of the Moon has been around for quite some time now and it has, by its own right, blinded you about the other qualities – the positive ones – about yourself.

3. What I need to relinquish (discard, let go).
King of Cups.
Although this is a King, a man of power and position, but there is some instability about his position: he sits on a throne which is on water and, therefore, makes his ‘kingly’ state vulnerable and sometimes difficult to meet with all that is expected of him. He is also emotional, sentimental and has a tendency to rule with his heart rather than his mind. I feel the message here for you is that whilst you posses the qualities to build your own destiny, you need to be less emotional and rely more on the power of your mind than sentimentalities.

4. What I need to develop.
Four of  Swords.
Here is a man lying peacefully with three swords hanging over him and one underneath, taking time out and simply pondering about his situation. I feel the message here for you is that when you are on your own, in your reclusive state of mind, you could use that period to reflect upon your situation and come out with a positive course of action about your life. This is in no way a state of having given up on life – when you go within and take some time out – it is in fact time to reflect upon yourself and your life, away from the pressures and outside interference. It is a time to ground yourself rather than feel sorry for yourself. It is a time when you evaluate your own potentials without losing hope that all is done and dusted for you by some external forces.

5. What I would love to become.
Ace of Swords.
Position of power, clear mind, ability to fend for yourself and be successful at it. This is the power of the mind which is control of one’s life and the ability to make decisions for oneself. It is almost the ability to take your own destiny in your own hands and make a success of it. This is what you would love to become and the steps above so far all show the potential for you to reach to this phase with the advice for possible changes in the way you look at life.

6. My current quest.
The Empress.
Your current mission is to be self-sufficient, have abundance and also be able to look after yourself and those around you. The Empress sits in a field of golden wheat and a lush forest behind her. Everything about her indicates the love and abundance that a mother or a wife gives to her family. This is your current mission right now in as far as being in touch with Mother Nature and satisfying your earthly needs, be it food, love, sex and abundance.

7. Where it will lead to.
Knight of Pentacles.
Clarifier: Death and Knight of Wands.
Coming out of your Moon phase, with an awakening of your inner ambitions and desires, finding a fine balance between mind and emotions and taking stock of your current situation and grounding yourself, I feel the Knight of Pentacles is the careful culmination of all the above thus brining you to a state of calculated realism to achieve what you want. The message of prosperity done in a cautious and prudent style, steering away from risks and being thorough in your forthcoming steps. The Knight of Pentacles along with the Death card will guide you to make the changes necessary to bring you out of the current phase which according to your does not inspire you with any hope for the future. In time, I feel the careful and calculated Knight of Pentacles will give birth to a fiery, passionate Knight of Wands for whom energy and zeal is a way of life.
Which one would you take on board for the way ahead? The forever calculating and cautious Knight of Pentacles or the ever so fiery and impulsive Knight of Wands? These are choices available to you my friend and picking the best of each of these knights could be the answer for the way forward.

My dear friend, I hope these insights made some sense to you and I would strongly suggest that you do not give up so soon.

I look forward to hearing from you and once again I apologise for this late response to your request.

Blessings to you.

To Cedars :

Thanks a lot mr.cedars for your reading, i didn't mean to push you to have a reading on me, infact i should be truly be grateful that you would waste your precious time just to have reading on me, so once i again i want to say thank you ! And as you describe me  as an outgoing and a gregarious person, that is true. But i don't know sometime i felt there is another me, who was sometime so nerveous, full of worries, full of anger and hatred, for example there where a time when i like this girls and in the same time i just want to push her away from me , because we had a different faith and i know this is still a very big problem in my country, and i just take the easy way out , so everytime she is trying nice to me or   make a conversations or joke to me i  just ignore her or make a small talk and then just pretending i don't have any feeling to her and at the same time i just want to hold her near (which i didn't do) and she never know my true feeling for her , having this feeling inside of me is like in hell, and now she is belong to another and i think it take me a very long time just trying to forget her (still hoping -> what a fool am i ?). Any way i hope (i always hoping -> is this bad ?) that i can get through this situation ! thanks !

P.S : Sorry for my bad english and poor grammar.


sincerely

Very J U

Dear Verisme:

I've also thought that I'm the ubluckiest person in the world sometimes but. you know what? Maybe it's just that you need to learn from every bad experience and then move on. I was told that, if we don't learn our lesson the first time, we'll have a similar experience a second time, and so on.

Remember that you own your destiny, try to take time to truly discover yourself and, when you're sure what is it that you want, life will give it to you.

Warm regards, and a big hug!