Im having a difficult time right now, emotionally speaking Im trying to change or come to terms with who I am , what Ive been, what I have been doing. Maybe I wouldn't have felt this way say if I had a job, but because of economic circumstance ( i was working in home remodling) i was laid off. and like every other soul im job searching lol. this period I guess has been good for me in terms of me having time to reflect, but I dont want to be stagnant for too long.  

I did request a reading about love the last time I visited the forum, but didn't follow up immediately for the career dirction in life, reading because I thought i needed to find out on my own instead of going to occult, but Im finding the pressure/saddness difficult right now.  any insight again, is appreciated, whomever is willing to give a reading for me. I don't want my whole future laid out , but more of an advice please . Much love  

Hi Jenira

What a beautifully-worded posting and a reading request!
I will be happy to give you a reading or, as you call it, guidance and insights via the cards.

Please give me a day.

Best wishes.

Hi Cedars and RHUTO

Yes, I agree with Cedars. Don't you think that we should perhaps add this to "Requesting" a reading as an example!!!!!!!!

Blessed be

Dear Jenira

Before I cast the cards, I tried to link in with you on a different level to see what impressions I am getting. At the expense of repeating myself, the impression I got about you in after reading your posting was of an emotionally and spiritually mature person. You act older than your age. I feel you know what is there and the work that needs to be done, but at times you step back to look at things from a distance; you sort of measure and analyse things and then go back at them. You don’t attack them; you just start handling them methodically, almost in a scientific style. You handle your life in general in the same way as your do your working discipline.
I get this feeling that your hands are constantly in motion; you like doing things with your hands, fixing things, putting things in place. I know you said in house remodeling, but I also feel you to be a hands-on person, if not a tactile person in other areas of your life. I usually don’t like giving dates and timing, but when I asked the question about your job situation or any potential for a job, I got the month of October. So, please don’t take this as the gospel truth. As it came to me, I am conveying it to you. In the meantime, I also see you handling this situation more logically than emotionally. You are well aware of the economic situation around the world, I just sense you to putting more logic around this rather than going down the route of depression.
I am also getting the feeling, whether this is an educated or calculated advice on my part or something that just came to me, that being you may be involved in temporary work, again using your hands, until such time you get into full employment. That is where I see your hands; doing things with your hands; making things. I hope this makes sense to you.

Now, let me cast the cards and see what insights they have to offer. I do not use a spread which gives an Outcome as such. This spread which I am going to use shows the energies and options around you and those that you may need for the way ahead. Some of these energies may be familiar to you or some that you may not.

I am using the Rider Waite deck.

You now:
Eight of Cups.
You find yourself in a situation where you wish to leave whatever is not making sense, whatever is not in harmony in your life, and move forward to newer challenges and horizons. Things may not be all that bad, but there is a sense of disharmony around which may make you wish to leave and go forth searching for different (if not better) prospects, opportunities or possibilities.

Energies/options currently around you.
Death. The Hanged Man. Ace of Pentacles.

A change is imminent in certain quarters in your life in order to give birth to a new chapter. These changes (Death being a major Arcana card) come to us whether we wish them or not, but in this case it is a change that feels much needed in your life. Change can be daunting and frightening, but it has the promise of new hope and sunshine once that change is embraced.
I also feel there is an element of withdrawal, self sacrifice, not getting involved in certain situations whereby you allow yourself the time and space to see things under a different light. Whilst you may give the impression to the outside world, that you are sacrificing yourself or being a martyr of some sort, but inwardly it is all your choice to go through this phase of self enlightenment.
New beginnings are there for you, should you wish to take them, in the area of work, material comfort, earthly belongings and physical pleasure. This can be anything from a new job, source of income, a project, opportunities that you did not know were around, but will land upon you as if out of the blue. Call it a gift from the universe. It will be there for you soon, but it will be up to you to accept and nurture those possibilities.

Energies/options for the way forward.
The Star. Nine of Pentacles. The Emperor.

We all need hope and inspiration to step ahead or to move forward. Without that hope, that guiding star in the darkness of the night, we cannot move forward in our path. The Star is that Hope, that Inspiration which triggers action and makes us move on. It may not be the very action that we need, but it is the inspiration that triggers us to take action.
After the changes instigated by the Death card and the withdrawal period of the Hanged Man, I feel there is another similar period on the cards for you but of the physical and material nature. Have you been denying yourself certain luxuries, pampering of the physical body, perhaps some time out or a small holiday? You may laugh and say in these economic times, I can’t do all those!  Whilst you have the discipline to look and monitor your affairs, there is a message here that says you need to look after yourself in the physical/earthly sense as well.
A figure of masculine authority and leadership, either in the form of a person in your life, or such qualities of assertiveness whether born within you or surrounding you, may play a part for the way forward.

You have had four major arcana cards which indicate events or situations of imminent nature taking shape around you along with the Ace of Pentacles and the Nine of Pentacles.
Ace of Pentacles indicates the beginning and the root force of its suit and the Nine indicates completion and just a few steps away from attainment of things of the earthly and material nature.

Only you may know what these insights mean, my dear Jenira, and those which you do not know, I hope they greet you with a pleasant surprise.

I hope the cards have conveyed to you the guidance and the insights that you sought for.

I will appreciate your feedback and also wish you all the very best for the future.

Cedars

Thank you very much Cedars! your insight is right on target ;) True I'm mature, and methodical whether its work or other things in life, sometimes I over do it with being analytical, but it does have its pluses.

Im actually taking an art course at the moment!  I think that fits the tactile/hands-on impression of me. Im still optomistic about how things will work out with me finding a job, it has me worried, but for the time being , Im also looking at it from the perspective that this may be a useful time for me to find out exactly what I want to do next, instead of just rushing into something I'll later regret.  That doesn't mean Im not applying and interviewing. Whatever surfaces, Im going to be xtra careful than ever in securing something that fits with what I want. What was revealed in the energies /options  for way forward, still has yet to resonate with me, but I guess I'll keep busy and see how things play out. I know its nothing exact, and probably depends how much of an effort I make. Overall the message looks positive and I want to keep thinking that way! thanks again for your time and your approach at helping me get some guidance.

jen