I give kudos for your education, and your will to go on.
Your questions are of very important character, and the one who must carry the consequences of the decision are you.
I feel this is to important for other to decide, a Tarot Reader or any other Reader can only give a suggestion, then after this they are finish with you, THEN you have to prove they was right, and if you fail...then it is only you to blame....not anyone else...because you live your life...no other do!
So my advice must be that you take a time out, evaluate where your interest is greatest, what you will be most happy with...and then put all your focus toward this goal...and not look to the other option you have rejected.
To do it alone...to learn to focus...will benefit you in many ways...among other will your self esteem and security grow....you know it was you who did it....no other can take the credit that was yours all the time!
Life is like a dance on roses.....life can be beautiful....but just like the stalk has thorns that hurts..so has life....but if we plan our path...the thorns might be avoid, and we can admire the "rose" (life)with less pain
Good luck, whatever choice you take
