I hope it makes sense and that it helps
You felt very happy in the past, you thought that you've established something safe and long lasting. It could have been either a relationship or your feelings and hopes to be involved in a relationship. Now you are trying to think reasonably, to stop dreaming as much as you used to, to concentrate on down to earth matters. You also try to pull yourself together. It seems like not everything happened in a way that you expected. You feel that you want again stability in your love life, you want to know that the direction in which you are going is really right. You are very much focused on the future. You seem to be prepared to take a risk and it is an element of your expectations; you finally want to face something new in general or new in the whole situation because you don't seem to like unclear situations, you don't want to be helpless, you think that the confrontation is better than unknown as far as advices are considered, I'm sorry to say that you rather shouldn't have much hope, you shouldn’t open your heart to people who doesn't deserve it because it will intensify the feeling of being rejected and insecure. The good information is that you can try to change your approach to the situation (yeah, I know it's difficult), believe in yourself, try to seek new possibilities, gather your courage again, overcome your fears; this changed attitute will result in the ability to give the best of yourself others, and it certainly increases the chance to being given something as well. I think that it also means that this attitude can change the "style" of your relationships; the relationship in which you give and receive is healthy.
Cards: past/reason - 10 of Pentacles, what do you think - Page of Pentacles, what do you feel - 3 of Wands, what do you expect - 2 of Wands, what should you do -Page of Wands. , what shouldn't you do - Star, the outcome if you take advice - 6 of Pentacles, if you don't take advice - 5 of Pentacles.