I am at the point where I don't know where to go. I went to school for 2 years and it didn't work out. I don't know if I should go back to school and take something else. I have $30,000 student loans to pay off. I don't know where to take my career now. I feel hopeless, like suicide.


Jacky
Feb 23, 1986
single
no job

If you are giving up at this age, Jacky, what hope is there left for the rest of us

Enough of this suicide talk, please!

When I tried to link in with you, I got this question coming to me: are you doing enough? What would that mean? Only you would know.

Did you have an affluent or financially comfortable family? I picked the Ten of Pentacles and this signifies financial contentment in a family circle. If your family is still financially secure, I wonder if they are unwilling to help you with your student loan or perhaps you do not wish to go to them help.

I have to admit, I don’t understand how you have accumulated student loans of $ 30,000 by going to school for two years. Were you perhaps extravagant in your spending like this family in the Ten of Pentacles who are in the marketplace spending money left, right and centre? Please forgive me, and I do not mean to antagonise or be critical of your financial affairs, but I am getting a feeling that somewhere a miscalculation of priorities might have occurred.

You are not a weak person, in spite of that suicide comment you made in your post, for with The Chariot as the second card, I see you fighting this situation and trying to find the best way to reach your goal. This is a ‘mature’ struggle, if I can use that word, one that wants to get to their final destination and is willing to fight for it.
If you have completed your studies and are 'employable' why are you thinking going for further education?

I feel the guidance or the energies of a woman either in your life or coming into your life will be detrimental for your steps ahead in the form of the Queen of Swords. She is shrewd, she does not give in to emotional drama and she brings about clear thinking and sound guidance.

I hope all goes well for Jacky and I have a feeling it will. All you need to do is to look at the future with an open mind rather than doom and gloom.

My best wishes and divine blessings for you.

Cedars

thank you, you are very kind. I went to the Art Institute Of Vancouver. The program I was in costed around $21,000. It wasn't my passion, I didn't like what I was taking but I thought if I just stick byit maybe things would turn out fine. 5 classes in 1 term I would fail a class every term. It went on for 6 terms and the school terminated me right before my final term before graduating. I should have left after term 1. So 2 years of really nothing but waste.

My dad makes somewhat good money as a mechanic. I never really ask him for anything except things like new computer at Christmas etc. He started his own family. I feel like my dad doesn't even love me. He brings alone for lunch every 2 weeks cause he's my dad but nothing else. His daughter with his new wife is everything to him now. My mom work minimum paying job.

ARe you under pressure to pay the loan?
Do you have a time limit?

I am currently not paying the loan yet. I just don't know if I should go and take some classes and learn something for a living or just find a low paying job and live like that for the rest of my life.