Hello Magdalena
I dont think you are influencing the cards; you are probably seeing in the cards what you want (or dont want) to see. That is the 'danger' when doing readings for oneself, especially those related to matters of the heart
Perhaps you should have posted here the three cards that came out for your self reading......?
Never mind.
I will pick three cards for you from the Rider Waite and ask the question: what does the future hold for Magdalena in relation to Noel?
Past:
Eight of Wands: Things may have gone or progressed a bit fast for you in the past, especially in this relationship perhaps. May be you both went too fast about wanting to develop it and it was not the right time or even the compatibility was no there at the time. The Eight of Wands gives me the feeling that things went too fast whilst perhaps they should have been given time to mature and develop naturally. Now, whether it was right or wrong, there is no need to beat yourself up Magdalena. If it was not meant to happen at the time, then it was not at the time.
Present:
Nine of Pentacles.
Lady of leisure perhaps? I get the feeling you are not in a hurry about this situation and you are taking your time, enjoying yourself - mainly on the material side of life - and, in other words, being a lady of leisure.
Future:
King of Wands.
A person of the fire element may be coming into your life who is rather charming, stylish and passionate. Whether this is a romantic entry into your life or someone of mature years (or matured through life experience) may alter your life in his way of doing things. He is a creative kind of a guy, he is competitive and has a good business head on his shoulders. He knows how to wine and dine and talks of designer clothes and fancy restaurants.
Could this be him?
My advice to you for the time being is to be like that lady in the Nine of Pentacles, who is enjoying the fruits of her hard work (and hard earned money) and give yourself time to expand your horizons and pamper yourself.
I hope this has shed some light on your situation.
Best wishes and blessings to you.
Cedars