Hello!

I am here to ask for a reading...the year is about to end and I wish to have a reading for next year... specially about an old issue that I never got an answer from my own tarot.

It happens that I hurt someone in past, I tried many ways, to say I am sorry and that I want us to be friends. But I never got an answer. When I send emails I get authomatic answers...that´s all.

I was too young and stupid when I met him, he said he was in love, that I was the one...and I was a horrible woman with him. I made fun of him, I made my best to let him know I was not interested. And I was not.
I have always been crazy for the man who became my husband. But a part in my head or heart... never forgot this other guy.  

I pass months living my life, taking care of my business, without thinking about him but then I have vivid dreams with this man. I don't have romantic dreams or any illusion of another affair with him.

All I wanted is to be friends if possible. Long distance friends.

This is very confusing..... specialy this silence and why he let me know he opened the emails then? Why read and not answer? Is he hurt, does he hate me, is he having fun or he just don't care a damn and I should do the same?

Well I can´t give more details, we are both married now, living in different parts of the planet and by no means I want to damage my marriage or his.

Please, help me to understand this and what to do...  
Thanks for reading!
Viv

Hello Viv

I appreciate the hurt you are feeling and your desire to make amends with this guy. It is a noble thing that you are trying to correct an error of the past and I believe you have already done so by sending him an apology letter/email to which he has not yet responded.
Well, the feeling I get is that he is reading your emails and is not finding much reason to respond to it. Perhaps he is not as hurt as you may think he is. I sense he is simply reading your email and cannot find anything to say. Even if he is trying to get even with you by not responding (which I don’t sense is the case) I believe you should just let it rest; you have said your apology and any further expectations from you may be so realistic – i.e. friendship, albeit a long distance one. If you have both moved on and happy in your lives, then you should just leave it there.

You have been strong enough to go back to him and apologise for the hurt you’ve caused him. If he does not want a friendship, Viv, and for now this is what I sense, you should just let it go.

You do not need a tarot reading for this my dear. I think you wish that he would acknowledge your email and acknowledge to you that, Yes, you have been hurtful at some stage in your life and that he forgives you now. For all you know, he may have moved on so far in his life that perhaps he doesn’t even think much of the hurt you caused him.

I would respectfully suggest that you don’t push it any more. If he wishes to send you a reply, then he will when he is ready. If not, feel at ease with your conscience that you have done what you needed to do by apologising to him.

Hope this brings some peace to you Viv.

Have a joyful Christmas.

Cedars

Correction to the word "realistic" and change to "unrealistic".
Hello Viv

I appreciate the hurt you are feeling and your desire to make amends with this guy. It is a noble thing that you are trying to correct an error of the past and I believe you have already done so by sending him an apology letter/email to which he has not yet responded.
Well, the feeling I get is that he is reading your emails and is not finding much reason to respond to it. Perhaps he is not as hurt as you may think he is. I sense he is simply reading your email and cannot find anything to say. Even if he is trying to get even with you by not responding (which I don’t sense is the case) I believe you should just let it rest; you have said your apology and any further expectations from you may be so un-realistic – i.e. friendship, albeit a long distance one. If you have both moved on and happy in your lives, then you should just leave it there.

You have been strong enough to go back to him and apologise for the hurt you’ve caused him. If he does not want a friendship, Viv, and for now this is what I sense, you should just let it go.

You do not need a tarot reading for this my dear. I think you wish that he would acknowledge your email and acknowledge to you that, Yes, you have been hurtful at some stage in your life and that he forgives you now. For all you know, he may have moved on so far in his life that perhaps he doesn’t even think much of the hurt you caused him.

I would respectfully suggest that you don’t push it any more. If he wishes to send you a reply, then he will when he is ready. If not, feel at ease with your conscience that you have done what you needed to do by apologising to him.

Hope this brings some peace to you Viv.

Have a joyful Christmas.

Cedars

Hello Cedars

Thanks for your answer, I think you are right. Since I have started to become more spiritual and conscious, I have been trying to get better and I did a lot of inner research to bring to light all my past bad moves, specialy the ones I behaved in a non acceptable way, being too self sure, arrogant or cruel...and more.
I really got back in past and I tried to connect people that have been good and gentle to me and in my blindness I treated badly and said I was sorry.
The only one I could never get a word from is that guy. And it is someone who I admired in many ways, but not as a romantic partner... that´s why I thought we could at least had became friends. But it seems he doesn´t feel the same.
I agree it is time to end this.
I have a lot of other things to take care of.

If this is not too much to ask...could you take one card for me, just to let me know what future is bringing to me?
My love life is OK, all I wish to know is about my jobs.

Thanks a lot dear. Merry Christmas for you!
Viv

Hi Viv
Thanks for your feedback.

I picked a card for you from the Rider Waite deck and I got the Two of Cups.
A new partnership, joining of hands and resources with someone new or rekindling an existing partnership.
The Cups suit is one of matters of the heart, romance and love, but the Two of Cups in this case I would look - in answer to your question - possibly a new partnership and an aggreement/contract in the works.

Blessings to you.
Cedars