Fisnihed work and now can continue to answer your questions.....



card#7 - 4 wands / honor - I can definitely see what you describe, that I am affraid I don't deserve to be honored.....but usually I think about this in regards to spirituality (I often think I am not good enough, not as enlightened as I'd like to be) - but how would you interpret this in a professional/financial question?

"Respected as a leader........you could possibly be a supervisor or manager in a professional sense...........and in a financial sense.......maybe you may not think you do not serve to have abundance in your life?    well you do.......... you complete your goal............


card#10 - final outcome / 5 swords - all the interpretations I've read of this card seem to be so negative! what does that card mean in the native american tarot, you say "spiritualist" (how I wish so!) but I don't really see it in this card?    

Another aspect of this card...... "is you handle any situation with integrity, you have such a Spiritual outlook on life........"

Hope this helps...........with the cards there are so many meanings it just depends on your whole situation...........
so some thoughts to meditate on......

Blessings....

Vesta

Wow...thank you so much Vesta and Cedars...
Cedars..that was my first thought when I saw the V of swords but I did't want to carry the thought for fear of being selfish....Vesta...makes total sense....
I have to run now and will post again Sunday night, I have more to say about your insights!

Pleased it helped

look forward to hearing feedback.....

Vesta....

Hello Vesta and Cedars,

Again thank you for your help. I have always felt the need to be everything for everyone at all times, and sometimes it can get overwhelming. I have also done several different types of volunteering work, and never really felt I was truly making a difference or that I was concentrating on the right thing. I have so much healing work to do within myself, and what Cedars said just made it even clearer to me.
Vesta, what you said about the fact I didn't believe that I was worthy of abundance or leadership, is so true. Thank you for showing me I do not need to be afraid or feel guilty about abundance.

The Tarot has been teaching me so much. It is such a powerful soul searching tool, it has opened the door to self-understanding like I never had before; I now see there is a lot of work I need to do within myself, before I can be as helpful to others as I strive to be.

Peace,
Gardener

Blessed be Gardener,
you seem to be on a path of self discovery and please do enjoy the ride and never under estimate yourself.

Hugs