Hi Cedars,

The reading I mentioned to you that did not assist me was not from you. Your readings in general have been very helpful to me.

In this reading that you just gave me, I was looking for some further guidance. Not an answer. An answer would not resolve my problem. Only my awareness of it will lift me out of the pattern I was in. When there is trauma especially from childhood sexual abuse the mind and body create patterns which form into behaviors. The only way out of the pattern is to transform the negative thinking. These are habitual patterns that the adult developed since childhood.

Readings are in my perspective to offer guidance and bring the best out in client. They can assist with raising the consciousness and bringing aspects to realization so transformation can take place. it is in the readers interpretation that this quality can happen. it is a channel. When you mentioned the lovers card and it's qualities I wanted to understand this more so I can transform it. I want to get out of the pattern with this man but I could not find the way out. I have just been to a shaman who healed my wounds from childhood and I was finally able to get out but only because I reached the awareness during the healing. I had to know where to go within me but she lifted me to get there.  

The ace of wands seems to be the new consciousness I am bearing that is a gentle passion, a passion about my spirituality and being good and on this path to goodness and not negative thinkings from my past patterns. It is a challenge because I have to work hard to allow the energy to move through me and not be a victim of the impulses my body is accustomed to from the trauma in the past.

Dear AnaCaro

Please have a look at the two mother figures in this reading (the two queens) and see how they resonate with you spiritually (Queen of Cups) and physically on the earth realm (Queen of Pentacles).

The state that you are in now in your Hopes and Fears is a state of withdrawal from all whilst hoping that you may move on and yet being held back by fear and foreboding.  I feel the advice here is to find a fine balance between both, as when you are faced with the qualities and opportunities of the Ace of Wands, I do not wish you to get carried away with its immense energy.

I picked an angel card for you with a request for guidance and empowerment and I got the following:

Oceana:
"Take action. You're in touch with your truth in this situation, and you need to trust your gut and lovingly assert yourself."
It goes on to say further........"there is no need for more research or time. You can trust your feelings on this one. I will guide you through the actions that are necessary, considering the circumstances. Your main concern is to avoid procrastination at all costs. Break the situation down into small steps so that you done become overwhelmed .  You already know what to do about this situation, and you have made up your mind to take action. I am here to validate that your decision is on the path of Light. Although there might be some temporary hard work or emotional turmoil, this will soon be replaced by a lightness of spirit akin to gently floating on a summer breeze."
"Sometimes you may feel too emotional  or tired to take action . This is because you're unsure of the 'correctness' of your decisions. Usually, unfounded guilt is the culprit that is draining your energy and happiness. This is when it's very important to call upon the angels to shore up your faith. "

Blessings t o you.
Cedars

Thank you Cedars. Your very kind to take time to look deeper into this for me. Your manner is felt with sympathy and harmony.

May the gentleness of your time embrace your spirit with the gift of self love through charity.

Dearest AnnaCaro

Be happy my dear friend and sail through these stormy waters in good faith that Spirit will not let you down.

I send you gentle healing and I know you will come out of this in good time.
Bless.