Hello... (I'm female, 33 born on August the 10th 1975 in Italy)
I beilieve life is a journey...we are sent on to learn, but I am struggling a little with my path! I became an English teacher in a foreign country 2 years ago and this year I'm finding my classes really hard. However this is the first real financial stability our family has ever had... I can't decide whether I need to toughen up and fight fire with fire or think about trying to do something else... What I have no idea!!!! for two days I have been feeling fragile and low and "used up"... very unlike me.... is this really what I was sent to do? ??????  (Don't worry I'm not going to make life changing decisions based on the readings I am just very genuinely interested in what the cards might have to offer as advice)
Thankyou in advance for your time xx

4 Wands
You look like you are in the centre being jumped on by a bunch of monkeys, high above a bluybird flies and you look up and want to be free. Sometimes feeling trapped and stuck or caught is a frame of mind, nothing else. You can easily walk away and fly free like the bluiebird if thatis what you really want, and sometimes just stepping outside to the corridor or for a breath of fresh air to wash your hands and centre and ground yourself will help put you back on top.
7 Swords
There is a prowler though. someone on the outskirts watching and looking to see that you do things right,  you will need all the slyness and courage of the wily fox to take charge again and herd your flock to where you want them and then they will look up to you with open eyes and respect.
6 Wands
Be the bright light that they all look up to, smile and smile and smile, be friendly and bite your tongue, don;t ever say anything out of place no matter how your heart feels.
Devil
One will come to challenge you but if you see through the games and the falsehoods then you will see the silver lining and realise that things are worthwhile

Summary
The task of being a teacher can be rewarding or demeaning, everyone deserves to be happy and you are no different, but remember life is not only a journey it is called the circle of life for a reason, the circle spins and never stops, one day we are at the top of the highs and next on the way down to the lows but rest assured the highs will come again. Today everything is under scrutiny and is watched for performance and ratings. Satisfaction can come from training  the innocent minds and opening their eyes to truth through knowledge that leads to enlightenment. But you, you must be happy too


Xia :o)

We used to make a living hell the life of our teachers, especially to those that they pretended to be something they were not and also to those that they were allowing us to smell their weaknesses, lol.

Pretty hard to be a teacher to some students. Be harsh if you have to else you will be in more trouble then they are and remember that after they leave your class they won't care much while you seem to take the trouble with you home, stop that, your job is your job and if you want to take something with you take only the good news and smiles.

Focus on those kids that deserve you, lol...

Thankyou so much.... I have just taken a long bath and mediated a little on the whole thing... I came to the conclusion that i will just have to become even stronger and brighter......I never pretend to be something I am not... half the problem because I have shied away from punishing them ...... but I will work on becoming a warrior of light......... smile I can and punish i will just have to ..... so as to be fair to "those who deserve me"

Interesting about the bluebird .... jays everywhere at the mo. and birds are v special to me..... I will try to find freedom in what i  do.... xx

Thankyou for taking the time to reply and if you are young or at school spare a thought for the teachers who put their asses on the line every day to try to bring you something.............xxxxx
Ec xxxx

EC, I was going to say Bluejay but I didn't know what it meant lol! I shouldve written what I was told instead of trying to make it make sense to me, ahh well live and learn. You sound like a fantastic teacher and I am sure that you will find the strength inside


Xia :o)