OK I started a little messy before but many of you have helped along the way. I am a little afraid of the results but am ready anyhow.

I just need to know what is going on in my life, I am married but things have always been hard for us even from the start.  I don't know where we are headed or what is in store. Can someone help me with this?

Well here goes:
My name is Susan,
Born June 4th 1962 at 5:47am

As you can see by my posts I have had questions and concerns and was very eager but I really need to know. Thank You so much...

Hello Susan.

I want you to know that I am a complete newbie at reading other peoples’ fortunes with tarot.  However, I concentrated and gave it a shot.  Please allow others to help you further though.

Tell me if this helps you, or sounds like what you are going through.    I did a quick 3 card spread:  past, present, future.

The Star. The past, or passing influence, indicates a focus on faith and possibility, and the future.  You want to find or again find the meaning to life.  You feel unloved, needing some inspiration.  You maybe looking for fulfillment.  
Five of Wands. The present indicates a focus on business and romance.  Are you suppressing what you really want to do?  Take a look at what you REALLY want out of life.  Maybe you are suppressing your TRUE feelings because you are unable to manifest your hopes to those who trouble you.  You may at this time be rethinking the way your life is going, and what you will choose to do to change it yourself.
Four of Cups. The future card indicates focus on the material, not a relationship.  Perhaps you feel in limbo, but at this time some opportunity will present itself to you.  This may be something wonderful.  I think probably, to watch for that sort of thing and take it if it’s offered to you.  Some of the business things may work out but you’ll be wanting more emotionally.  You are going to make the right decisions to clean up the troubling things in your life.  You will find this strength within yourself.  Basically, things might not look great right now, but there is still definite hope and opportunity out there.  You need to step back from the problems to gain clarity.  Only then will you be able to solve these problems.  

I do really hope that is somewhat helpful, but maybe someone can do a better reading for you.  

That is what the cards say.  But off the cuff I think you know things aren't "right".  People are always scared of the truth - me included.  But the truth is not always bad.  Sometimes you just have to face what you are dreading and you find you have stores of energy you didn't know existed.    

Also you may find that things work themselves out just the way they are supposed to be.

You know you are not content, but contentment may be around the corner if you are honest with yourself, relinquish your fears and take some time for yourself to think through what is best for you.  Because what is best for you may be what is best for others as well.  You just never know.  

~Ivy