I've never had a real tarot reading before (unless you count on online tarot reading.) I'm hoping perhaps, I might get a more heart felt answer to my question.

I'm having a hard time with my husband right now. I'm feeling the desire to move forward with my life, which means moving on without him. Surprisingly enough there is another man in my life that I never predicted, and it almost seems like karmically we were drawn to each other, (though we've maintained much distance due to my marriage and my uncertainty about my feelings.)

The few readings I've done online have given me the impression that I'm moving forward, but I should be hesitant to make any bold moves at the time, and that I need to get out of my current situation to bring myself to a higher level of enlightenment.  This new man has been a catalyst for my desire to change and improve myself...

can anyone give me some insight as to the direction I'm going, and perhaps a little insight on this new man? At this point I'm such a mess of mixed emotions, I really am not sure what I'm getting myself into.
My ultimate goal is spiritual enlightenment, and where I'm at is suffocating me.

Thank you to anyone who at least read this post.
Have a lovely day.

Hi tatra!

I pulled some cards in relation to your question and this is what has come up:

---3---  Influence
4--1--5 recent past-you now-near future
---2--- root of the issue
7 outcome/advice

You: based on the cards, I feel that right now you are in between the past and the present. You are not yet ready to leave the relationship that you are in, and yet when you look at it, you are crying over the spilt milk, over what went wrong in your relationship (with your husband I mean).  It is a difficult position for you, as there is uncertainty. You feel that you lost your confidence in being able to fix what went wrong. At the same time, you are not quite looking at what is still good. (Five of cups)
This leads us to the root of the problem. It seems that you have felt a lack of giving/receiving in your relationship. As if you gave and gave and never received anything in return from your husband. This has created a disapointment in you and a desillusionment. It feels as if what is bothering you is that fact that this relationship was not balanced: one person dominating, the other submitting; one person doing the talking, the other doing the listening etc. An overall tipping of the scale towards one person to the disadvantage of the other and as a result you have felt wronged on so many occasions( 6 of pentacles)
It is clear from the cards that you are mentally making all kinds of calculations and planning, and pondering on leaving your marriage and on starting a new. You feel you will find what you always wanted at the end of your journey. You are wanting to turn your back right now on the past on the mental level in particular. You are searching for solace somewhere else. (Six of Swords)
in the recent past, you have felt as if someone has been blocking and resistaing change in your life and has been overly possessive and preventing you from moving forward. Could this be your husband here...?
It shows that the new man in your life is definitely interested in you romantically and is going to come forward with his feelins for you quite soon. However this card warns of being in love with love itself... The card indicates that the romantic ideals and the charm and attractions are truly there, but that it is important to keep your feet on the ground of reality and examine your true motives in this. (Knight of Cups)
based on the card, it seems that you are heading for a stressful time in your very near future due to this whole relationship situation. You will feel as if you are carrying the entire world on your back and as if you are alone and with no one to help you with your load. You need to learn to ask for help too, and also you need to learn to be kind to yourself and give love to yourself.
It shows you may have a few more bumps on your path but that you are someone who is strong and determined and you WILL achieve your goals of attaining serenity and true love in your life. And this achivement is not as far as you think. It is just that by trying to do it all at once, instead of taking one step at a time, you are overburdening your poor self. And it is really NOT woth the toll it would take on your health and on your life. (Ten of Wands)

Given the absence of major arcanas, i would say that even though this time in your life seems extremely stressful and preoccupying, it is not as determining in your overall life as you are thinking. What I am trying to say is that one day you'll look back at this ( and this day is not too far ahead...) and think "what was all this fuss about?"

PS: Please pm me for details because I got some additional info but would rather give them to you away from the public board.

Best wishes
Farafina

Thank you so much for your insights! I will try to PM you. This is very valuable information to me, so thank you for taking time out.

Have a blessed day!