Hi Tamara!
I pulled out 7 cards for you.
Past influences:
The Empress + The Lovers
It seems as if motherhood and your role as a nurturer and caretaker occupied a big place in your life these past few days. However, you indeed have been feeling as if you had a choice to make in your personal life and related to your emotions. You have been feeling as if the choice is very difficult.
The fact that both of these cards are together points to the fact that you have been thinking a lot about a romantic and/or sexual relationship that is fulfilling. Either one that you have; or one that you desire to have.
Presently:
The Four of Cups + Two of Pentacles
The cards talk about dissatisfaction in your life right and the fact that you are dwelling a little bit on the past. You are feeling like taking time to yourself and focusing on yourself. And the cards show that you are juggling many demands right now: family, work, finances, friends etc.
Near future cards:
The World + Page of Wands
Whatever your goals are, you will be accomplishing them. You will be finding a solution to your problems or questions. The cards show you will be creative and confident and motivated for your new ideas. There could be a young child involved here.
Advice card:
3 of wands:
In whatever you do, have a visionary approach. Make decisions based on longterm. You are in a position where you can have a larger view of the situation.
Cheers and I hope this helps
Farafina