
Here I am, rested and refreshed, as promised.
Since I am always trying to find decks and spreads that fit into my scanner (so that you can enjoy the beauty of your very own layout), I am working with the Mini Rider Waite deck using a hexagonal spread, as you can (hopefully) see in the image.
The general impression I receive at first glance is that of inner turmoil, beautifully depicted in the 3 central cards (vertically). Your inner voice is trying to give you good guidance, but you are unsure if it is genuine or just fancy: your rational mind believes you may be deceiving yourself with your inner cravings. In the past, you have taken on loads that did not altogether belong to you, just because you are so strong and caring. In future, this might make you wary in your relationships with others.
There are strong forces pulling at you (no less than 3 Major arcana in 7 cards) that you should heed, but hardly any emotional or love indicators, so I doubt whether this is the right time for you to contemplate a love relationship and all that it entails. Maybe once you have taken a closer look at the issues here depicted...
CENTER:
The Moon rev. This position describes who you are this instant, what part of you desires an answer to this question. So I will have to ask you whether you have been having strong doubts or fears about your future love life. Or are you simply going through one of those intense daydreaming bouts, sometimes increased by the hormone cycle? The Moon is inextricably linked to the subconscious mind, our dreams (both asleep and awake), the ways in which we deceive ourselves sometimes, and our complexes and insecurities. Think on this.
1- RECENT PAST working on your favor:
Queen of Wands. All this has usually worked for you in the past: you are a strong, protective, generous and kind. Also sensitive, intelligent, warm, affectionate, realistic, solidly planted in your world. You love life and people and hate cynicism, control and domination. Life protects you and offers you joyous experiences.
2- PRESENT on your conscious mind:
8 of Swords. This is a card of confusion and it is what you have in mind these days. You have a feeling of isolation, oppression, vulnerability. You may feel there are restrictions, difficulties or a need to wait and do nothing regarding your love life. You seem to believe there are still things you ignore that put you in a disadvantage when dealing with a possible relationship.
3- NEAR FUTURE:
3 of Cups rev. This is just some situation that might affect the outcome of your question. It can mean to lose something that made you happy, like a friendship, or feeling disappointed because of a lack of emotional backup. Maybe a group disperses, or you feel there are things that are being kept from you in a certain environment. Mmm... another meaning is overindulgence, so watch out for those wild nights!
4- HOW YOU WILL FEEL IN THE NEAR FUTURE:
The Tower rev. Once more, a card of confusion. You have a tendency to shield yourself from hurt. That is fine, but sometimes it is positive to allow ourselves to live through the whole experience, to really feel all the suffering before it can start to heal. Otherwise, you always keep a little inside and it can resurface when you least expect it and really smack you. In this case, you will tell yourself that the observed slight by your peer group (card above) is really not that important, not a big deal, not a tragedy. Well, not to outsiders, maybe, but what about you? Should you not pay a little more attention to your feelings instead of dismissing them as exaggerated?
5- YOUR UNCONSCIOUS MIND NOW:
Judgement. You may be feeling an inner tug, an impulse, something that calls you to make an important change or to recognize one that has already taken place inside you. It is like a spiritual awakening, with new forces developing for you. Listen to your inner voice and you will make good, long range decisions for your future. You are now reaching a new maturity, understanding, renewal. You have a chance to follow a great inspiration full of enthusiasm, forge a new identity. What a thrilling prospect!
6- RECENT PAST WORKING AGAINST YOU:
10 of wands rev. You were weighed down by worries, cares, responsibilities that were just too much for you. You were nearly smothered, both physically and emotionally, and unable to fully use your energy. You finally got rid of some of it but, for how long? will these burdens come back to haunt you? do you take on responsibilities that are not really your own?
In order to get a more clear indicator of the advisability of a love relationship in the near future, I am drawing out one more card.
POSSIBLE OUTCOME:
King of Wands rev. Interesting card to appear, since you have already been portrayed as the Queen of wands. There is someone you will come into contact with, although your near future cards indicate that you might be a little disappointed in this person. He/she is strong but tempered, understanding, hardened by experience. Tolerant but somewhat superficial, a little theatrical and/or dogmatic.
By
pirbid
Weee...! What an interesting spread for a very interesting person. I hope you do listen to your inner voice and learn to make the most of it, because that is where you will get the tools you need to face any future relationship (love or not) from a secure and independent position.
Best of luck, Fina!
