Well MB helped me feel comfortable enough to ask for a reading on line (didn't know this was even a possibility).  this will be my very first reading of any kind.  could someone please consider doing my reading?  

My name is Deidre only because they would not allow my mother to use Dodie on my birth certificate (needless to say teachers and/or my mom/dad yelling at me are the only time i hear Deidre  Also my nickname got a nickname thedode. i am a TRUE cancer born 7/9/1959. (my horoscope for tomorrow on MB told me to stop being indecisive and make a decision)
   
#1 why now, why all of a sudden do visions just appear
#2 what direction should i study, tarot, psychic....
#3 i am looking for my inner self, who is that?

if i did this wrong, PLEASE tell me what i should do.

Dode I would be honoured to read for you and will get right to it

1) You are at an age where you are apparently reaching 7 x 7 and all your chakras will be open and working allowing energy to flow through your whole body. Even without any kind of spiritual knowledge, or training your chakras will mature at the rate of one every 7 years. With training or insight they can open far earlier and develop far quicker, but the seven steps are very important to the physical maturity of a spirit. Other things that can lead to sudden visions are emotional or hormonal disturbance, the menopause or losing a loved one or a divorce etc. Or a change in diet or habits, sometimes just shaking hands with a 'healer' or walking spirit can do this too  So think back and see what has triggered this

2) I would suggest that you start with tarot You have posted here in this part of the forum for a very good reason and learning tarot can open your mind to the possibilities of more than just life, it can increase your intution and your empathy for others, it can lead you through the lessons of the 22 arcana, each one being a spiritual exploration and adventure. In fact the tarot never used to be used for readings at all, its original use was for students to learn enlightenment

3) Your inner self......

Lets go to the tarot now for some insight ...

The inner you is direct and sharp and on the ball. You don't like being messed around you like to know exactly what is what and only the truth is good enough for you. Your card is Excalibur from the Glastonbury Tarot. The sword that Avalon gave to King Arthur to keep him safe and protect him in battle. The sword of the highest quality and the strongest metal, the finest workmanship and the most intricate etchings. This is all at your heart. Others come to you for strength and wisdom and some are also quite scared of you. You have many dreams and goals and sometimes you get too confused as to which to go after. But you are sometimes a recluse, you hide behind a mantle of blue that others see as a peaceful and unruffled exterior. You don't suffer fools gladly but you do know how to potect yourself and sometimes others mistake this as hostility or abrubtness and so turn away.  You have a wise tongue and can twist words around meanings until people get lost and just end up agreeing with you. A part of you hides grief and sadness and a deep hurt, you long for something that you cannot quite put your finger on, but yet you know there is a deepness and soulfulness that if only you could free it you would be happy.
You have endured many years of sorrow and pain, not bad but just enough to take the edge off and make you look at the stars above and wonder "why me?".
You want to break free and to follow your heart on something, I feel that this is your area of learning. The Inner you that you seek. I would suggest that you look for a tarot deck and start there. Start with the major arcana and one card at a time. Each card is a lesson to be learnt and mastered and understood before moving on to the next. That way you will find your inner self as more is put before you and opportunities for growth arise.

Try exploring clear quartz and use meditation and visualisations in your every day life. Expand your knowledge and reach out.     Soon those stars will be brighter and let down their answers

Well m'lady i must tell you, i thought my questions were going to be to hard to answer (probably explains why i was scared to ask them for the last month).

#1 So i have to be a novice here and tell you i never knew about chakras and since you mentioned it i found a wonderful site explaining it to me.  so, i thought every 7 years was only related to my allergies lol, but yea my 7x7 is this july i have always been hormonal and yes my dad did pass away last july...   guess i had no choice about this starting now.

#2 i find it easier to read a book than read on line, is there a book maybe you can suggest that is simple for one who has noone to ask in person but only here on MB

and #3  WOW, if i could read someone as well as you someday i would be proud.  Almost all is to the T.  i even have that sorrow and pain not many know (i do hide it well) i am a great mother but i doubt myself sometime "what i did wrong that my eldest is so happy one minute to so deep and dark other times to the point where she scares me where her mind is"  she tries though and she is strong and i know she will succeed but till she does i will always wonder what i could of done.  

Tarot sounds like so much fun, another novice thing here, whats arcana a deck or just a series of tarot cards? My grandmother who was the only one who understood me and read tarot has altzimers and just smiled when i told her i had visions lol, but i know she knew cuz she said hope they are beautiful she saw many colors she said (amazing she remembered)

Thank you m'lady you made my day.

Hi Dode,

Thank you so much for your lovely reply

I have books, tons of books, but I read online too. The sad thing about reading online is that anyone can and does (lol) make a website and type out their 'facts' or 'truths' and others take it at face value and assume it must be right. Books are usually far more accurate, but that said, good online information that is updated and written by an accredited writer is very useful. So all that said, I would say your best bet would be to browse around and see what you get drawn to.

Tarot is fun  Let me explain a bit. A true tarot deck is made up of two parts, 22 major arcana and 56 minor arcana cards so a total of 78. Arcana is losely translated as 'secret' and so the 22 are major secrets or pieces of information, the 56 are minor or less important. Each of these 22 cards of the major arcana depicts an archetype, a type of person, but a specific type of person, and each card has a lesson or idea or theory to share  Concentrating on the major 22 gives a firm base to work from and give solid readings from.  Maybe choose a deck that catches your eye, that is based on an area you are interested in, and there are many decks to choose from. Some of the simplest are based on the Rider Waite deck, and there are lots of different themes. Be careful that you do get a tarot deck though not an oracle deck that is totally different, unless you wanted to of course