Ok forgive me  is this is a little long winded,

I know i have  some kind of ability  and i wish i had tried to develope it alot sooner  in my life, but  i also  feel that  maybe i wasn't  ready  to  accept it until now.  I feel things  sometimes  ahve   have   no  idea  where it  comes  from. and  i can't  just do it  when i want,  it  jsut  comes to me  i guess when needed, and  i  never  get  everything  all at  once. just little  tid bits  at a  time, or i will feel  something aobu ta situation  but  can't  pin  point  what.  sometimes  maybe i try too hard, anyway  i believe if i  use   a  tool  to  channel it  i can  better  understand it  or  can better  use it.   the  problem is  i  don't know  what  tool  would  fit me best. i was  thinking  tarot  or numeraology  ihave  been  learning some  numerology  but  would  very much  like  to  try  tarot too. my  question is   are  either  of  these  right for me  or  is  there  somethin g  that  better  suits  me???


not  long ago i was  talking to  a  friend  about  a  situation she is  in, i   had a  feeling and told her   then  asked her to go to   her  freind  who  does  tarot  to  confirm  but  don't tell her  what i said.  and   she  did  and  the lady  confirmed  exactly  what i had  said.

Hi Sweetykat,

I'll have a go at this for you, and I have chosen a spread which is called a Direction Spread.

1: What do you believe you want? ~  Ace of Swords
You want to open up for yourself a new opportunity in which you can explore the potential of your mind. I feel this card is telling us here that you want to gain clarity on how you can use your abilities and what potential they will hold for you.

2: What do you need to understand about the two directions you are drawn to ~ 3 Wands
That this may not be a question of either/or but perhaps an amalgamation of both. By stopping and taking in a bigger view you may just see how you can combine these two disciplines to your advantage, then you also need to apply a trust and faith in yourself to be able to see this through.

3: What if anything works against you here ~ Death
This may be suggesting that there is  an inability to completely change your outlook, allow yourself to view this with new eyes. Perhaps you have been comfortable in the knowledge you think you have about yourself, and removing that mask to see what is really beneath it, may cause you to resist making this change. Sometimes we have to face up to what we think we know about ourself in order to allow the elements that are not real, just a persona to drop, so that we can really begin to find out who or what we are capable of.

4: Where is it your heart really wants to go ~ The Hierophant
It seems to be suggesting here to me that you really want to discover your own truth, not what others have impressed upon you, but what is real for you. It tells me that you want to make more out of the mundane and lift yourself to a higher spiritual level. The Hierophant is a card about knowledge and knowledge is freedom,

5:What do you need to be aware of as you find your way ~ Eight of Swords
That the way to freedom is to remove for yourself those mental restrictions that you may have in placed, that keep you from expanding and exploring.
Wake up to the realisation that it is they way we confront those restriction and use our thoughts that ultimately lead us to being released from those bindings that hold us in a mental space. If one allows theirself to get stuck in old conviction and ideas that will  ultimately bring our inner development to a stand still.

6: The way forward - Three Cups
Is to seek out like minded people, join a group where you can share your ideas and thoughts, learn about both these topics, and with the companionship and support or others you will find out if either or both or neither of these areas are right for you.



Hope this has been of some help to you  

Thank  yo uso much  bella,  i am  amazed  how  accurate  this  is to my  situation,  i do tend to  second guess myself, and if i didn't  do  that i woul d go  farther, i need to  meditae  on  this problem   an d learn  to  trust myself, I was  thinking   of  both  i am  bery  interested  in  both  way   numerology  and  tarot.  I  have  been  doing  alot of  soul searching  lately,   and  finding  me  in  there lol,   again  thank you  very  much  bella   this  has  helped  alot

I am glad this has been of some use to you  

~ Bella ~