Hello,
I am glad that you have chosen to re-word your request. Asking for tarot readings online is very different to face to face, unless of course its via webcam lol. It is a shame in a way that there is no seeker input when we do readings in a forum setting like this, I much prefer doing them with some contact, so in a chat room or on messenger when the seeker can interact and comment and ask questions, but anyway, here is your reading

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You and the energies surrounding you right now, Two of Pentacles - The Panda

This card shows us a giant panda climbing a tree, one pentacle ahead of him and one behind him, carved into the trunk. The tree is bowing under the weight of the panda and the animal is unsure whether to go forward towards the leaves on the higher branches or to back down and stay safe but hungry. The traditional tarot shows a person juggling two pentacles and trying to balance finances or possessions and material goods. I am using my Divine Animal Tarot for your reading and so all the symbolism and picture content revolves round animals. This card would suggest that you are the person trying to blance and juggle and to make decisions that affect finances or material possessions. Perhaps you are unsure of which step to take next?

I then concentrated on your question and dealt the following cards - Dragonfly, Firefly and Nana Buluku. The dragonfly (Two of wands) shows us a complete cycle, from a nymph or young dragonfly to a fully mature dragonfly with wings and the ability to lay eggs and start a new life cycle. This card might be more significant because you have children. It shows us what has been accomplished, that all things come in circles and cycles and that we all have beginnings and start off young and are nutured and then grow into mature adults and then start the circle again by producing our own offspring.
The next card is the firefly, (Ace of Wands) and although this is very similar to the dragonfly, the firefly is a night worker, they sleep during the day and at night they are produce their own light which in turn attracts tiny bugs that is their food that congregates around them. This card shows that we can make our own light and attract that which we want, to us. Just by working hard and beating their wings the fireflies light up the darkness and glow for all to see. This is your time to shine, by working hard you can create your own life and attain your own goals.
Nan Buluki ( Queen of Wands) is the goddess of creation, the card shows us the oubouros, the circle of life the serpent eating his tail, the completion of creation a circle with no ending or beginning. Perhaps this card is trying to reassure us that life is neverending, that although we all worry about the here and now, what will be, will be, and we should not spend our lives worrying about the might's and may have's and what ifs, but instead carry on and decide what it is we want from life and then start taking steps towards it. We all have the power within us and we all have the ability to use it, as long as our own fear does not hold us back.  

As a summary, the dragonfly seems to be emphasising the circle of life and especially the continutation of life, perhaps by having children and then maybe grandchildren we take part in this cycle? But there are many other ways for us to be happy. Like the firefly, we can be a shining light for all to see and bask in, we can share our experiences and knowledge and by finding out how best to shine we can then enlighten others. Perhaps now is the time for you to look at this aspect of your life?  In answer to your question, the tarot has posed more questions and asked you to look deeply inside your innermost thoughts. By fearing the future and worrying about things that may never happen, we can miss the wonderous moments that make up the present, we may miss the enjoyment of the small details, a smile or a laugh, and we can be so consumed with the future that we can miss opportunities that may take us nearer to our dreams.

Meg

thank you very much for your time meg,

i have only had a quick look my reading (i have read it all) and what i have seen is very intersting and yes i know i will get my answer that i seek

see here in oz i have just got home from work and got the kids from school

so i am going to wait until later tonight when  i have some me time to really read my reading

again i say thank you very very much for your time and effort

 

sorry it has taken me so long to get back to you i finally sat down and really looked at me reading

the Panda - (two of pentacles) yes i am in trouble trying to balance my financal affairs and it is because of a material posseton (car) and i dont know if i should get another loan with lower repayments or just struggle on??

Dragon Fly (2 of wands) - Yea i can relate and being a single mum has more meaing and i have always put my kids first ( even not having a long term partner)

Firefly (ace of wands) - yea i am ready now after a lot of personal changes( being clean and sober) to start and think about me and not being lonley ( my kids are getting older now)

Nan buluki (queen of wands) - i belive life is never ending but we only have this life once and we should apprecate it, ( but that was easy to say to practice is another thing) somtimes i do and am getting better

the summuary i can relate to, i suppose what i fear most is that my kids might not be ok and that i will be alone (just like my mum)

again i say thank you very much