I think it all makes clear to me, gradually...

This early morning I understood the value of life more than I had, even when it was just for a little.
The ongoing present events that give me new experience but it was as like I can't understand everything that is coming to me yet...
It's like the world is changing every day without me noticing at a fast pace, time seems to be too slow for me, and I'm being left.
There's this thing what I call 'asleep' when my body does not function as what I expect it to do, and it's I'm being 'asleep' too many times lately...

I wonder what the Lovers card tell, it's as if I'm confused and I know something at the same time

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I just draw a single card after reading everything.....

Reversed Five of Cups

Looks like I'm a little lost...

I plan not to draw any card further after this until I have my resolution on the events happening to me... still I have a question.



Can I know more about these?

I still have another question in mind too but I think it will be for later...

Thanks for the help Payewacker, it's been a long time, too

Cheers~

I think I have understood even for a little bit what the Lovers card means...

Since the start of the month, I have always been tested; by great challenges and tests, each of them given to me as a choice...
will I do this over that? will I do this or that? it's always been a yes or no and a do it or no type of game within me.

I wonder if I can survive this fight just enough that I can win

I feel like the heavens and earth are colliding slowly upon each other slowly, changing everything on the way...

Peace.

zeldaevolution

Hi,

I know that english is not your first language and the info I can give you is really intensive and "complicated". But I think, if you take it one step at a time you will derive an understanding;

Let us start with this:
Vav/Waw.

Biological process:
Reproduces itself.

Vav expresses the fertilising agent, that which impregnates. It is the direct result of Hay upon Dallet.

Vav/Waw is the male copulative principle whereas Samech 60, its mirror on the existential level is female and receives and concentrate energy.

The archetype of life (Hay, 5) follows the archetype of resistance (Dallet, 4) and leads to the archetype of copulation or Union.

Vav/Waw-6, Translation.
Life, the response to the motion of material animated by spirit, proliferates.

Vav is the copulative element (the male energy) the primary or fundamental act of fertilisation. It is male in both its action and its form or representation. It is interesting that it is an archetype for potential belonging to the first row, while it’s projection in the existence-space-time called Samech-60, is the female sex.

Focusing on the middle of the archetypal level, life resists on the Dallet side and reproduces into existence on the Vav/Waw side.

Second Triad.
4-5-6

Vav/Waw spelled Vav-Vav is simply a copy of itself. Another letter of the Hebrew alphabet, Mem, spelled Mem-Mem has itself for a root Vav/Waw fertilises, Mem receives. Besides appearing in itself, Vav/Waw contributes to the spelling of Yod, Noun, Qof and Tav, where it is the connecting agent between existence and resistance (Yod), between inner life and outer life in, life-in-existence. Noun between cosmic consciousness and real possibilities (Qof) and between Tav and the rest of the alphabet.

Go to this link:

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B5yuZlzfve9GZGQ4OGZjZjUtNzlhNi00MGY5LWIwMmYtMGUyZjgzMWFhYzll

I want you to remember that this is a cold theoretical approach, it is a good thing to render a good understanding in this sense before you start moving into the spiritual. Perhaps we should walk the road of numbers, then you will have a very good understanding of how each alpha-numeric and triads in the kaballah works.

Blessed be

Ok. I'll try to learn more about this in detail...