thank you so much for your reply. Yeah, I guess there's no "story behind" regular playing cards. I remember how they were useful though, when I was reading for my friends at school and someone came by we just pretended we were playing.
Regarding my intentions... I don't feel like I'm being selfish because I really want to "connect" with this guy, however.. there's always a little vanity as if proving yourself that you can end up with a nice guy.
hmmm... or perhaps it is because I'm being more girly than usual so I can melt his heart (he's a Cancer)... I'm not faking that I'm anything that I'm not

on the contrary, I can be more like I am and step out of my mask when I'm with him...