1.....How I got to this point in my weight gain
2.....Where I would like to see myself
3....Weightloss/Fitness Challenges for the month
4....What I should focus on to reach my goal for the month
5....Results at the end of the month following the reading
Count me in!
Since it was a 5 card spread, I adapted the cross from the Celtic spread, so this is the way I laid them:
1- At the base or as the cause: Ace of Wands reversed
, meaning I lost my line because I could not focus my energy nor consolidate previous weight loss due to an excessive appetite. Also, I was not able to appreciate what I already had -true: I always saw myself as fat, even when I was 20 pounds lighter!-.
2- At the top or mental level: The Chariot reversed
. This is funny, since I got more fears than positive thoughts, which is probably the reason I am getting nowhere. It means I am afraid I will not be able to control the situation or myself, lack of organizing ability, unbalance, maladjustment, being tired of trying or trying to take on too much, which leads to only partial or temporary results. SO right on!
3- I put the challenges to the left, beginning the horizontal work line for the month, and got 4 of Swords
: I need to rest, retire -company gives me the munchies-, get a temporary relief for my anxiety -I try eating more protein- and avoid a fight till I am sure I can win it. I take this to mean that I must first deal with anxiety and tiredness, rather than plunging straight into a restrictive diet.
4- I put the goal right in the middle so I can focus on it better, and got Death reversed
: I need to watch out for stagnation on old habits, inertia, lethargy, boredom, lack of goals, as these all make me binge. More worrying is a certain desperate fight from the ego in order to avoid this change, since it finds it unpleasant. So I easily plunge into a depression, failure, pessimism and abandon. Uh-oh, I think there are quite a few issues I should be dealing before tackling the weight loss. Or at least at the same time.
5- Results I put at the end of the horizontal time line, in the position of near future, and got Temperance
: moderation, balance, optimism, resources, harmony, peace, cooperation, stability, serenity, flexibility, happiness. It looks like I will be able to find some help and achieve a certain equilibrium, what a relief!