
I have kept seeking answers from the tools I have for myself, like the tarot, runes and my pendulum. I have learned to set them aside and be gentle with myself. Take a hot bath in fragrant oils, or sit in a comfy chair and listen to some good music that soothes me, put on a cd of the monks chanting and let them take me to their monastery and be in their energies.
I have found I must set the cards aside and stop looking for answers and let myself just be with where I am. I am the answer. Let me say that another way. I AM is the answer. When I let my little I am, by ego self, my "little" self get desperate and start searching for answers, then I have forgotten that I have the answers inside of me. The first answer is recentering. I have to recenter and bring myself back into my heart and let myself to reconnect with my I AM. My Deity Self. I let myself get quiet inside and outside so I can start being back in touch with Deity. Then I surrender to the Deity I Am my distress, the things that took me off center. I breath deeply the energy of Deity.
I also will take long walks with Deity when I am able to be centered enough to be aware of Deity being with me. I love the walks.
Thank you for your question. I don't know if it answers. I just know I have been where you are talking about. Desparately seeking and letting the desperation be in the way of the answers. The only way I know to get the answers is to recenter. It is a process of moving back to center. You can't always step right into that space. Then after being centered and back in relationship with your Deity Self, it is easier to hear, see, feel the answers.
