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Posts: 10 · Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2008 3:06 pm

Not too much has changed with my work, basically I had a meeting with my superiors, they are working with HR to change the terms of my employment and I am waiting to hear back on some kind of "offer". In the mean time, I had need of the tarot again this morning (yes in the car again!) so here's the spread & background.

For the past few days there has been a lot of tension in the house. I know partly it's due to me PMS-ing, but being aware of that I try very hard NOT to over-react. That being said, in the past 5 days, I feel like I have been swallowing a lot of BS. However, despite NOT blowing up, I think the other party involved thinks it is in their right to treat me in this way. For example, even after several hours when one situation has defused itself, any other small thing will be blamed on me whether I am directly or indirectly at fault, even when there were things they could've done to help the situation. And always it is expressed in a way that is condescending and implies that I am stupid or useless. Again, if you have read my other posts, you know I have a hard time not being biased when I need the cards for advice. This morning, just before leaving the house for work, something happened again and I just cried half the way to work until I was stopped at a light and grabbed my cards.

Here is my 5-card Short-Term spread:
1) Why are tensions so high? - 7 of Cups
2) What led up to this whole situation? - 8 of Wands
3) What can be expected in the next 2 weeks? - The Emperor
4) What can I do immediately to stomp out this ugly situation (if possible)? - Queen of Pentacles
5) What can I do in a longer term (2 weeks) to calm the waters? - Death

So have fun with this one guys! I am not as frustrated anymore because I am distracted but any insight will be helpful once my day is done. Thanks!

Posts: 947 · Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2008 8:23 pm

Ok, let me see what I can tell you about these...

7 Cups (I assume none are reversed). Tensions may be high due to some misunderstanding: it is obvious one or both of you are not seeing things as they really are, but through the filter of your own experience, expectations and, because this is a Cups card, probably through an emotional veil, too.

8 Wands What led up to this situation was some sudden news, actions, or anything unexpected. It could also be the end of something that had been going on for some time, specially if one of you was taken by surprise by the sudden ending.

The Emperor What you can expect in the next 2 weeks is a little bigotry, someone affirming his/her position in a rather tough headed way, with not much room for explanations or mature conversation on the subject. But it could also mean you will be able to ask for help and protection from a father figure.

Queen of Pentacles You can calm down and make contact with your own needs. Once you are sure what you want, you can defend your own interests without hurting anybody, in a gentle and caring way, standing up for yourself. You are mature enough to that and more.

Death In order to be free of these emotional upheavals, some deep changes are needed. You might have to end things the way they are right now and contemplate doing everything from a wholly different point of view. Are you ready to take up the challenge?

Great giving you my view on these "motorized" readings. Hope everything works out fine. I really liked the names you gave to the different positions in the spread: it makes reading so much simpler!

Hugs

Posts: 10 · Posted: Thu Feb 14, 2008 4:50 pm

Pirbid, I never read with reversed meanings since I can't remember ANY meanings to begin with! Plus if I did that, then I have to remember which cards came up which way along with which cards I drew...that's too complicated and advanced for me. LOL

7 of cups - lack of focus/organization, laziness & procrastination
8 of wands - putting plans into action, end/resolution in something, learning more
Emperor - structure, direction, order, exerting authority
Queen of Pentacles - caring, nurturing, encouraging, warm, soothing, loving, supportive, secure, generous, soft-touch, loyal, trustworthy, resourceful, allowing to just be
Death - end, transition, accepting changes, going through the unavoidable

I think the spread is quite positive since my questions were situation specific and the cards actually "answers" each other really well and really specifically. The reason tensions were so high is that admittedly I have been lacking focus of late. Some people might say I try to be overly organized at home (I still don't think I am nor do I live up to my standards) but nevertheless, I have been lazy and unmotivated (exercising has stopped for 2 weeks). My energy levels were lower and I was more irritable.

What lead up to the situation? Well, it started on the weekend, we decided to go through with the plans to build an entertainment unit. I would just be helping out, holding the wood, passing tools but we were disorganized and volatile with each other. There was a lack of communication too and then there were minor flare-ups. I kept my mouth shut but I was fuming. We also rushed off on Sunday, without previous planning to join some friends on a one-day snowboarding trip. That caused a bit of tension while we prepared to go. Also, I learned in the past few days that my best friend's long-term relationship was ending and surely that weighed in my head somewhat causing me to react negatively to some things.

The Emperor & Death cards both signify an end to the current situation within 2 weeks, as long as I accept that things like this are unavoidable at times. Immediately and probably on a continual basis too, I should just try to embody the aspects the Queen of Pentacles represents: caring, understanding, nurturing, encouraging, secure, etc. It makes sense to me that being that way would defuse all ugliness.

And once again I am amazed by the Tarot! On that note, I was just shuffling and feeling my Tarot of the Gnomes deck last night before bed and decided to draw a card for Valentines day. You wouldn't believe what I got: Two of Cups. Now isn't that nice?

Posts: 10 · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 2:49 pm

Well...it has been 4 months since my post regarding my job situation. Things have not gotten better. I have yet to see any offer from my company, no I should say THE company. When I ask my boss, he basically just says he is too busy trying to hire other contractors or temps to fill in the recent employee shuffle in our department. 2 essential personnel have suddenly been removed by HR or transferred to another department to seek permanent work. In fact, because of the personnel shortage, I have been working extra hours, juggling the work of one and a half person without pay increase. All this time, I was trying to be loyal and polite. Don't tock the boat, I though, just waiting for the offer to come.

The extra money from turning full time permanent would've helped a great deal. If I did not really need the steady income right now I would have quit 2 months ago. I have been saving to attend my sister's wedding coming up in 2 weeks, along with another friend getting married, a close friend visiting and several other unforseen circumstances that contributed to an additional outflow of money in the past several months. Besides the extended hours at my "regular" job, I have even tried to take more hours at my part-time job where the money is never worth it and for the little I can work because of conflicting schedules, it is really not worth the effort.

I did another reading in the car yesterday. It was not really out of desperation. I figured I haven not touched them in a while because I have been so busy. It is the same old 5 card spread I used before and briefly looking at the card meanings after, I am blown away once again and even a bit worried.

1) Sum it Up - Four of Cups
2) What I want - Five of Swords
3) Outcome - Ace of Swords (reversed)
4) Getting There - Three of Swords
5) Obstacle - The Star (reversed)

Posts: 20 · Posted: Sat Jun 21, 2008 12:38 am

Cyprine wrote:

The 9 of Wands coupled with the 2 of Swords in the spread reinforces the fact that I have indeed been closing myself off this past year, to protect the balance of "things" I have worked hard to achieve.

In 2006, I had a very bad year. It was great in terms of career but perhaps too much so that it was upsetting the balance of life at home with my significant other. We talked through the problems that had built up over the year and agreed to try and make things work. However, I made the decision on my own to stop pursuing the type of career I was after because it would inevitably pull us apart. The first few months after our "agreement" was tough on us both. I started my boring steady office job and committed to nurturing the relationship. It was very difficult to find a balance but now we seem to have achieved it and I am happy. Work, while boring, makes enough money and gives me enough free time to juggle the other aspects of life. It is this balance that I try hard now to protect and I am fearful of upsetting it.

I have decided finally, after a year here, that I will take on a permanent full-time position with the company and I just talked to my boss about it so it isn't quite finalized. Here's where the Ace of Swords comes in. Certainly, my tasks and challenges at work will change as they find ways to fully utilize me. I may even take additional training course to gain more skills that will apply to the job. That may get a little tough to balance my time again but I am the type to soldier through to achieve my goal and persevere. This is what I envision for myself anyways and this decision will definitely set a clearer path for me.

The 2 of Swords in the What Will Be position troubles me a little. While it reinforces the 9 of Wands for my current situation, it also seems to indicate that in the end, I will still be at a stalemate with myself. It makes me wonder if there is something in my situation or even in What I Want that is unclear, muddling my decisions. As coupled with The Moon, it begs the question, am I deceiving myself in some way now? Or perhaps I will continue to deceive myself, close myself off, refuse to see truth, etc.

The High Priestess in the Getting There position seems almost cliche in this spread. To get to What I want, or to What Will Be, I must follow my intuition and listen to my heart. (Seems like listening to my heart is how I got to where I am today...it is a good place to be now though so maybe that's not a complaint.) Or maybe I am confusing my intuition and my emotions with what's in my heart and THAT's the truth I need to see.

Then of course, The Moon being in the Obstacles position is purely redundant. Things to avoid: being overcome by anxiety, deceiving myself, losing direction & purpose.

To conclude, the spread was a perfect snapshot and statement of now, what I hope and everythin related to it. Did it shed new light or give me direction? I would say no...but maybe that's too much to ask from the tarot. Perhaps that was never its purpose. Pirbid's interpretation of the High Priestess gives me some hope though. Maybe I will find what I really want when I am truly ready, that is all.

I am still a fan for it's ability to summarize though. For some people, they can't even do that themselves and the tarot would be a wonderful self exploratory tool. Thanks for your input! You guys totally had it too and I am sure after reading this, you can see how all your comments totally apply!

I love it- your interpretations are directly out of my favorite tarot book!! that author is so talented...she can make any beginner sound like a pro