Hey wishiknew  Welcome to the club of "ungrounded-ness" (?)

You know since I was a child I had this notion that I am here to have fun..... as I grow older I kept wondering " where the hell is the FUN?"

I have never "fitted in" this world, never.....

All I have accumulated is experiences. Too many experiences that weigh me down and bond me, dull my soul and even dampened my passions.

It would be very ungrateful and unfair of me if I didnt mention that the little experiences that are good, those that bring me smiles and chuckles when I reflect back.

Most of the time I just wish I can withdraw to some empty void that has no humans.

I really think that the it's the down fall of men when adam n eve ate the forbidden fruit which made them conscious. There would be no pain if there's no judgment.

Anyway thanks for the interpretation, tourbi.  

As always I have a completely different take, to me the dream? was it a dream or a med? means something else.

You keep your gifts hidden, wearing the mask, as many of us do, it is a different life if you show yourself. The medicine man is a healer that uses all the resources of the world, but he needs to keep his secrets hidden and so puts on a mask so that others do not fear him, at will he can commune with spirit and the Eagle is a spirit messenger that is one of the few that can fly high enough to reach the Divine, once there one of the greatest gifts is given, the gift of healing, the cobra of the white light, you carry his power with you as it was put into your pouch that all medicine men carry with them always, sometimes they would keep the sacred healing tools beneath the surface of their own skin, so you have the gift with you. Only a few have a golden aura and by working with the tools you will change from the blue and turquoise  flashes to gold

Well I had this day dream when I was reading some very very very very booooooooooooring engineering procedures.                

That was why I suggested the notion of feeling very bored and trapped cos I dont relate to my job at all.

Does it mean I have the potential to become a "medicine man" or a healer. I have been trying to make a career change but fear has got the better of me. I am still recovering from my last attempt of a so call "career make-over" which ended with 3 yrs of misery cos I am such a high maintenance kinda guy.        

Thanks LOA.

Oh PS. please advise what kind of reading I should have if I want to know more about my life path.