right true.. the reason i ask is bc the why's i guess my inner voice feels doubt and fear.. but lol best not to ask anymore lol i cna't make sense of this no matter how hard i try, just hope to change my own situation and of course have always been dedicated to helping others!

Yes, but I think this goes on your own self security, and self image.

No one in the world...or in the Universe for that sake...can demand more of you then that you try to do the best you can....

Since no one can give you the fully truth, you need to discover it for yourself....the worse thing you can do is to believe thing because other people tell you that so is it......When you yourself believe it...then it is You who act...then you do it from your heart....then it count.

From dawn of time there have been doom sayers around, they might believe it strongly inside themselves, but no doom has arisen so far.

If we all live by the rule....do to other what you want them to do to you, then I think you have a safe approach to life, and to any GOD.

The only time you need to fear your God, is when you KNOW you with purpose have done thing that you should not, but just like a Father or Mother he/she will forgive it if you again strive to do thing according to heart.

Never be afraid to follow your inner voice, even that is to change opinions .
But in order to listen to your inner voice, you need to have self security,belief in yourself, else your inner voice might be your own fear that is speaking

None of us are Saints....and there is no need to be one, in order to live a good life, in regard to your God!

I would venture to say that when we have a belief there is a God, the what is God comes to mind for us all.  When we define to understand this God, then it is personal.  Your God may not be mine and mine yours, but they are both right because love means your definition for you and mine for me.  

So ultimately while I believe in one God for us all, there are a myriad of faces God shows the world through our inner understandings.  And sometimes this can change over a lifetime.  Never restrict the growth you feel within yourself even on the subject of God.

right true thanks guys.. it could possibly be my own insecurity, lack of trust to rhuto.. I think for now the answer is impossible for me to know.. I just had a lot of doubts in the reincarnation process but I am still learning so what do I really know.. I think it's just best to focus on here and now..