Hello folks, i am not sure if im on the right board here....But part of my  present uneasiness... is about guilt.... forgiving myself(if i can ) for mistakes.....I seem to be living with guilt daily yet... i dont set out to carry out bad deeds..........Once i must have been so in on myself...I dont know why, that i neglected a whole room full of plants... i wouldnt go in for weeks, i cant explain.... but i just felt, leave it for another time , leave it.... etc...ofcourse weeks later i did go in and they had all expired....... i feel enormous guilt about this, like its a blot on my soul.....and i cant understand the force that was preventing me to attending to that...........I wish i could understand how i can square things with this....it feels so bad.PAUL

Hi Paul, i really feel you are having some inner turmoil.  I really feel for you.  Perhaps you are suffering depression which can affect people in many different ways.  Some people find just getting out of bed in the morning is too much and suffer guilt as they think people will think them lazy when really they are not.  Its a imbalance and you need help sometimes.  Talking is a very good way and a start so the more you open up the more you will be able to deal. Don't be afraid to call out and don't let this post be your last. Love and blessings to you

Polly

Forgiveness is a powerful Spiritual tool.  Meditation is a good way to work on forgiveness.  Sometimes the meditation helps us to get the answer as to why we do somethings, or don't do.  Part of forgiveness for me is surrender.  I'm learning to release and surrender to Mother, Father, Goddess, God all that is my life in every way.  The questions like, why didn't I water the plants, I am learning to surrender, the pain, the plants, the inaction.  I am finding release.  It's an interesting process that I think goes hand in hand with forgiveness.

[quote="tourbi"]Forgiveness is a powerful Spiritual tool.  Meditation is a good way to work on forgiveness.  Sometimes the meditation helps us to get the answer as to why we do somethings, or don't do.  Part of forgiveness for me is surrender.  I'm learning to release and surrender to Mother, Father, Goddess, God all that is my life in every way.  The questions like, why didn't I water the plants, I am learning to surrender, the pain, the plants, the inaction.  I am finding release.  It's an interesting process that I think goes hand in hand with forgiveness.[/quote]


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Hi Paul,

You get my 2 cents tonight.

I do this everyday. I neglect something(my choice), I know the consequences when I do this, but until the plants "die", it doesn't hit home. I can't feel guilty about it, because I knew the out come, just at the time I didn't "care".  

It's called depression. I know I have it. The pills worked great on my mind, not good on my body.
I can't take them. But they may work for you. They help a lot of people, they helped my head. So now I'm trying to do it naturally, and mindfully. Very hard.

You can't feel guilty over things you "can't" controll,( depression is hard to controll). You'll drive yourself crazy.

Get some help with the depression. Admit it to yourself, and work on it mentally. When you do complete a task(ANYTHING), doing the dishes, watering the plants, feeding your dog( how is he by the way?). Congradulate yourself. It may seem little once it's done, but it was hard to get it done. Sit down, take a deep breath, and feel how good it is that you did it.

It does get easier, but not quickly. I have been working on this for 3 years. But I AM working on it.
Yeah for me, and soon, Yeah for you.

Lots of love to you.

karlene