I've always been in a strange condition. You see, I wish to believe in God and I can see how his existence is perfectly logical... but for some reason there is something holding me back. I spend my life daily pondering this pull I am experiencing. How can I prove to myself he exists? I know that this is such a hard question to answer but how do I kill the doubt that plagues my mind? I think my quality of life has gone down the gutter because I can't convince myself that my being will not disappear when I die.

Any help would be appreciated.

Hari AUM..My dear Friend first of all we must kmow what is GOD.
".....Definition of GOD
God is beyond definition. But according to one's own vision or
receptivity, one will define God in one's own way. Some will say that
God is all Love. Others will say that God is all Power. Each one will
see God according to his own necessity, his own receptivity and,
finally, according to the way God wants him to see the ultimate Truth.


I see God with form and without form. I see Him as boundless
Consciousness, limitless and endless Consciousness. Again, I see Him as
energy, infinite energy. But usually I see the Supreme in the form of a
most luminous, golden Being. When I converse with Him, I also see this
form. I am extremely fond of this particular form. Here on earth, where
we judge beauty with the human eye, we feel that a particular child is
most beautiful. But I wish to say that the Supreme that I pray to and
converse with is infinitely more beautiful than the most beautiful
child on earth….Hari AUM
Dr. Vyas

Ah, I see what you mean. Thanks for your response. I've always had a kind of intuitive imaginative idea of what God is like, but I was always afraid that He was something else.

I see God as the person who will be waiting for me when I die. I feel like our soul before we are born is like a neatly stacked pile of paper. Then the very second we are born those papers and thrown up into the air. As children we have to pick up what we have and run with it. Life is a speeding roller coaster and so we must go with the flow. I feel like we are supposed to take those sheets and find their proper order. Some have stains all over them, some are missing chunks, and some are simply lost and so we must start from scratch. I feel like it is our job to refine and perfect our soul like this through Good, Virtue, and love for others. We must ultimately bind those papers permanently into a book. When we die, we hand God our book and we ask "What do you think? Was it what you expected? Did you like it? Did it disappoint you? Are you proud?"  

No matter what his response, I would thank him for this opportunity to live on this crazy and mysterious planet.

Thank you again. I gained a lot of clarity from this.

The straight answer for that, no need of quoting scriptures etc, because he will say that it is some theoretical imagination. The only proof for God is the human incarnation coming into the world, and straightly performing the unimingable miracle and by that He proves the existence of the unimaginable God and also He preaches about the unimaginable God. You are unable to know the unimaginable miracle and He is performing. Neither you analyze nor you perform the miracle. Thus human incarnation is the authority. Jesus told I came to fulfill the statements. The scriptures are fulfilled by the arrival of the human incarnation.

Jesus arose a person who died three days back, no body can do it, that is not possible for an ordinary man. The same Jesus told there is God. You could not analyze this miracle and you could not under stand the miracle, and hence the performer of the miracle is the sole authority in this field. Either you should also perform the miracle and say God does not exist. But you should do it in genuine way. Some body acts as if he is dead and ask him to rise; not like that not magic. If you can also do and say God doesn’t exits. Then we will agree and we will say that all these scriptures are just bogus.

That is why these scientists and atheist fight with miracles. They are only catching their throat. They are always enemies to the miracles. That is the only hard nut for them, if they cross that hard nut then they have won. Scriptures alone cannot stand, unless something is demonstrated it is not proved. That is I why Jesus told I came to fulfill the statement of scripture. I demonstrate or perform the theoretical knowledge preached in the scriptures. Only human incarnation’s miracle is the only answer for these atheist and scientists.

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