I just feel like my life is one big drama after another.  I try to go with the flow and yet sometimes I feel like I am being taken for a sucker so I fight with those around me.  Then I go with the flow again and then everything ends up in a tragic ending with my relationships.  I know we are supposed to learn from it each time, but jeez I really just want to relax and not worry about when the other shoe will drop.  My nerves can't take it.

Anyone else feel like this pattern keeps happening?

You could be describing a number of things in your natal chart, mars in 4th house will interfer and want to exert energy, be it phyiscal or mental or verbal. A Bad temper can also be found with mars square uranus aspect in the natal charts. You could also have a stellium planets in 8th house naturally ruled by scorpio. The dkfoundation website has great info on planets in houses as does skyscript in templates it covers all the house meanings.

Houses: angular houses 1/7 4/10 the energies of planets placed here are obvious cos it's your 'shop window' visible for everyone to see. Next the succeedent houses 2/8 & 5/11 the energies in these houses are not in shop window the are in the shop, but stood behind the counter, ready to come out when needed. Lastly, cadent houses 6/12 & 3/9 these houses/planets are not in shop window or stood behind the counter, they are in the back storeroom and only come out when 'triggered' or an emergency and much harder to recognise and access...

The houses are like the backdrop of a stage, the setting if you like, the planets are like actors and the aspects are how the planets behave in that settings/stage....