Hi Nycole, I am sorry to hear of your plight, unfortunately most of us have to go through this to grow. As Rhuto said I do not think you need a reading as it will not and is not a miracle cure for you problems. What I will do is give you some runes to study, as aspects in your life you may want to explore.
The first of which is a message of hope for you to guide you home in your darkest moments. The torch rune Kenaz:

This rune emulates what I like to call the Light House on a stormy night which guides the ships away from rocks and guiding them home in the same process. It dictates that knowledge is the key, because without knowledge we have only darkness and ignorants.
The next rune I give to you is the rune of the Auruoch and it's resilient strength to ward off illness in the wilderness. This is the rune of healing, to start the healing process. After you have found the knowledge then healing would be the next step.

Uraz for healing.
This next rune I give to you, I think you are in sore need of. It represents Joy and Harmony, the rune Wunjo is also a creative rune and to me is the rune of the Heart Chakra.

Wunjo of Joy.
I must warn you though that Runes in whole are only tools which will give us help if we put in the hard work. So I suggest you meditate on these runes and look for them in each different aspect of your life.
Blessed be
MG