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sabbath siren
Age: 35 Zodiac: 
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Location: Western Australia
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Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2009 4:53 am |
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This love this thread and also wonder about the person who began it.
I have no insight at all as to past lives. I draw a total blank. Recently, someone said to me they saw/felt that I haven't any - so, I throw my hands up...
In this life, there was a time when I wanted out. On new year's eve, 1999/2000, I told no one and drove to the beach near where I grew up and parked and took a lot of a lot of things. More than enough by far. And it should've ended there by rights, yet three days later I woke up in my car, crying because that was another thing I hadn't done right.
I won't say that I'm sorted out these days. I'm not. But I'm grateful for having woken up, and for so many other things, every day. So far, every new year since, I have wound up either working for the lack of anything else to do or sitting somewhere, dejectedly, in my own company. Where ever I am, though, I spare a thought for the me in the car at the beach and take some time to simply sit and let gratitude fill me up. It has a kind of mysterious quality for me because, back then, nothing would've convinced me that, years later, I'd be glad to be alive.
If ever I hear someone say they wish they were dead, I make a point of saying, "Wait one more day", and tell them what happened to me and how I was just not able to see that I would feel differently down the track.
Wait one more day.
Always wait one more day.
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