HI,I had a N/D/EXPERIENCE 8yrs ago when i allmost died with a brain virus.As my body shut down(just before i was put on to a ventilator)i could hear some one saying my name,,later confirmed as trying to rouse me.I saw vivid colours and was aware of myself moving upward,i felt like a butterfly,thats the only way i can describe it.This is the only plain memory i have for that 3wks.I was put into a coma at that point.I was told the congregations of 2 churches prayed for me over the next 2days.They gave me less than a 10% chance of waking up(with or without brain damage!).Anyway i did,and have few physical reminders of the illness.

Yes, I did. I was involved in an accident in which I severely injured my hand. I was rushed to the hospital by my then-roommate. Due to loss of blood I eventually went into hypovolemic shock. I recall feeling "tired" all over and when I "relaxed" it was like I fell. Before I "blacked" out I could sense my body convulsing and I could hear myself praying 'Hail Mary full of grace..." Things went "dark" in that I could not see with my eyes, but my level of awareness increased by orders of magnitude.

Briefly, I was aware of them working on my body, but I had no attachment to it or them. I was ready to leave.

I'm an Noise Vibration and Harshness (mechanical) engineer and I adore Quantum Physics so I sense things in patterns in my conscious life and I recall seeing flashing kaleidascopic light interference patterns and the most peaceful, no STILL would be the proper word, Existence. I felt at one with All of Creation; at peace. I had no questions. I KNEW ALL of the "answers". I was both whole and home. Somehow I recall observing my body looking at my hand and I flexed my fingers and it was fine. Then all of my perceptions of my body "fell apart" into the kaleidascopic light patterns. If one reads THE HOLOGRAPHIC UNIVERSE by Michael Talbot the significance of what I perceived is readily apparent.

I was also aware that I was not "on time" or it was "not my time" and it seems that I had the option of trying to stay or leave. I recall the nurses saying get two units of saline solution (I told them I wanted a Ringer's solution as opposed to someone else's blood during some of their questioning prior to me passing out). Which after paying for all of my records and reading them they did use.

Coming back was "painful"; the pain in my hand.

Did this change me? Yes, I've got a pretty bold personality if pushed and I've always said "I don't fear death" and I really didn't. I had been reading CONTACT: THE PHOENIX PROJECT newspapers and journals [ http://www.phoenixsourcedistributors.com ] prior to this event as well as Dr. Walter Russell's THE SECRET OF LIGHT so it's not like I had no idea of what "the other side" may be like. I had my ideas and my work (performing FFT analyses on signals and Digital Signal Processing Theory) prepared me for what I believe this Universe actually is.

How Did I Change

I am LESS tolerant of argumentative individuals - there are more important things in life than arguing. Force is not of God. Let them move at their own pace.

I am LESS judgemental of persons.

I am CONVINCED that there is NO such thing as Death. The Mind is ALL and God is Mind and Mind is eternal.
My physical perceptions are illusions. There is no "time". It seemed like hours to get to the hospital. It was about 5 minutes, for example. My awareness right this minute is laughable. When my hand was crushed I was VERY Aware. Of everything. I could smell the iron in my blood and everything in my periphial vision was a clear as if I was staring at it.

I could "sense" or was much more aware of a person's "vibration" levels. Some of the nurses didn't really care about me and I could "see" it just as you can see your PC screen. I would snap at them when they'd ask me a question. Those that really cared, I could sense them and between dealing with the incessant pain that accompanied each heartbeat and the occasional wave of pain that would cause me to grit my teeth and focus I'd smile and answer them as if nothing was wrong. I laugh now because they asked several times if I was on drugs.

I am now less effected by people's physical pain, but I'm more or less empathic to your emotional pain. I'm still wrestling with this as I "don't know" how to integrate into my life experiences now. I typically avoid persons who are undergoing tremendous emotional pain as I FEEL it in my solar plexus. I need to integrate this as I can assist people in need.

Well, I hope it's not too long or too intense.

During the kaliedoscope of lights it was if I was suspended or floating in equilibrium with the ethers for lack of terminology.

There were no relatives or next of kin.

I think we experience what we wish to experience. For me Knowledge of my world is my highest goal so that's what I experienced, I guess.