yeah i'm a little bit in a piddle myself...
I met my reki master through the guy I was dating at the time, I became close friends with the master during my relationshiup and the friendship continued after we ended it.
I did my reiki | and reiki || with the same master.
I really had no clue but I started to grow and grow through my friendship with my master and one day I was finally ready to be attuned. And hence my journey into the healing world.
But the thing is that now about a year after getting attuned to the second level I just don't seem to have the same connection with my reiki master - there are just so many things that he doesn't quite understand about me. I think he gets it but then will say some statement that is just so off that I end up actually getting hurt as I just cannot believe that he could get me SO 'wrong'.
I think its because I was so 'terrible' when I started out. Just so clueless and ego orientated that its kinda stuck in his head - I don't think he can get his head around how much I've changed.
i then left the country due to circumstances (I live in Accra, Ghana at the moment with my parents - expats) and now the only major reason why I would return to my home country is to see him and hopefully be ready for my 3rd attunement.
I progressed quickly to the second level and now I'm dealing with what needs to be dealt with before I will allow myself to be attuned to master level.
I just think it is SUCH a responsibility and an honour that I want to be well worthy of it. Ag I know I am already 'worthy' but I just feel that I need to work out some of my kinks in order to truely be able to look someone in the eye and say "I am a reiki master".
Thats HUGE, MAJOR BIG deal for me.
But going back to my story - I now sit here in Ghana and wonder if my reiki master is the guy for me. I have little contact with him and didn't really leave off with a warm fuzzy feeling within me.
But i'm very loyal and I also think that me being here and then maybe returning home will be that perfect sync moment - kinda like when I am ready then I will get the o;opportunity to return to my home town.
I'm quite confused.
I do know that will be will be but i think I just wanted to put this out there...
Also maybe you guys have some advice/info that might illuminate things for me...or just for you guys to share in my story/feelings is enough
