Mangomom,
I don't know how to say this, but I'm in desperate need of an Akashik reading. I feel so lost, helpless and its kind of hard to explain..but I'm very lonely and I need help so bad. Nothing has been right in my life so far, and I have lived always hoping that things will get better someday..well, that day doesn't seem to come. I don't mind being single, if I didn't have problem after problem to face. I'm not the kind who is constantly on the look out for a partner. I'm quite independant..but life is so hard. There is problem after problem and I don't know if things will ever get better anytime. There are times like today..I wish I had someone to share my problems with, someone to talk to. Just having someone will make it so much easier. Even if there is no partner for me in this lifetime, it wouldn't matter so much..if life wasn't this hard.
I always ask god what I have done to deserve all this. I don't understand and I don't know what I should do to make things right.
In general I want to know about my living situation, a home, money and a partner. If not, just anything the records show..just anything I should know at this time.
Thank you kindly.

Dear Caramel,

While you have every right to and are more than welcome to seek a reading about this, and MangoMom is one of the most understanding and professional readers whom we are fortunate enough to have working on this site, it is clear from your request that your problems have become so many and complex that you in addition to a reading urgently need to consult a professional doctor, psychologist or properly trained and qualified counselor with regards to learning to deal more effectively with the multiple challenges being presented to you by your situation.

Above all you need a close friend and companion who will be willing to listen to you without making any assumptions or without feeling tempted to want to want to automatically fix things for you, as if your life is broken beyond repair without outside help.

Basically you need a person who will be there for you through both the good and not so good times, and if that person also loves you as something more than merely his friend that would be seen by you as a welcome bonus.

While you may think that at your relatively tender age the chance of finding a man who deserves to be loved by a kind and sensitive young woman such as yourself is quickly disappearing, even without giving you a reading I sense that your fears of remaining lonely for the rest of your life are not consistent with what I am being impressed with by my own inner source.

I do not have access to the Akashic Records as MangoMom does, but I believe that we are still drawing our intuitive/psychic information from a common source in spite of the different methods which we use to draw upon it.

I therefore strongly suspect that MangoMom's Akashic reading will agree with my preliminary feelings about your above average chances of gaining not only a friend but also a lover at some time in the not so distant future, but between now and then I encourage no urge you to get all the professional help which you can afford in your local area, while the various readers on this site will of course continue to provide both moral and spiritual support and comfort in helping you to know that both the Universe itself and all of your many friends on Mystic Boards care deeply about what is happening (or not happening) in your life.

God bless you and may he or she keep you safe and as sweet as you are, and I look forward to seeing what reading MangoMom will offer you when she next returns to the site, to work her special form of magic in putting your mind more at ease with reference to you beginning to finally see the light at the end of what has seemed to be up until recently a long dark tunnel apparently with no ending in sight.

Happy New Year for 2012. I get a distinct feeling that it is going to be the best one for you so far in finally getting your emotional and spiritual needs met at much the same time.

Only time and enough self love and a real sense of hope on your part, will ultimately tell you if our impressions are indeed correct.

L&L,

EoT  

eye of tiger,

Your post was very touching. Thank you so much for your kind words and good wishes.  
My problems are external, things over which I have no control. like for example when I made this request I had some problem in my house..which seems to have resolved now but..this is how things have been for me. one problem after another, problems just find me...


I hope 2012 will be a good year. Thank you.

Happy New Year to you too, may 2012 bring you lots of happiness.

Caramel,

You are more than welcome, and thank you for being so understanding of my sincere intentions not to be seen as interfering in your close relationship with your chosen reader, or in any way wanting to take the place of MangoMom's reading which is still to come.

May you have the very best new year by far in 2012.

Respectfully and humbly yours,

eye_of_tiger  

Caramel, thank you for your patience, and EOT, thank you for such wonderful words of wisdom and I do agree with you 100%.  I had sent Caramel a private message to let her know that I was tied up withhouse guests for the past 2 weeks and wanted to have a clear mind when I opened her records.

I have opened your records and the first thing that came to me is your statement where you asked God why you deserve the difficult times.  First of all, God does not punish, all humans are loved by God as if each one were the only child that God ever had.  The problems and difficulties have been due to choices you made, not God.  You have been blaming God for so long that you do not realize there is a more positive way to think.  When you take responsibility for the events due to your choices you will be able to take hold of the events and turn them around.  You are a beautiful lady that does deserve to have a good life without so many problems and that time will come about soon.

You harbor a lot of anger towards many and you need to let it go.  You also have a lot of anger toward yourself that you need to let go.  

There are a couple of things for you to do that will assist in this process of letting go.  

First, the Forgiveness prayer, to be said for 42 days, if you are having a really bad day, say it more.

FORGIVENESS PRAYER
If there is anyone or anything that has hurt me in the past, knowingly or unknowingly, I forgive and release it.  If I have hurt anyone or anything in the past, knowingly or unknowingly I forgive and release it.  This I ask for the highest good of all concerned

Also, there are some outside influences that have seemed to be attracted to you, which has caused the need to blame someone else.  Say this prayer as often as you like, but at least once a day for 37 days.  The number of days for each prayer has a specific power, so be sure you keep up with it.

PRAYER FOR RELEASING OUTSIDE INFLUENCES

If what I am experiencing is not mine, may God his shield around me and I release whatever it may be to Him.  This I ask for the highest good of others and myself.

The second thing you are to do is Journal.  You will find that you will receive a tremendous amount of information while journaling, re-read your entries at least once a week.  You will discover who you really are by recording and re-reading your experiences, thoughts and dreams.  It will help you define direction and know your clear path.  

Once these negatives have been left behind you will find that your life is good and that God loves you, and that you love yourself.  Until that happens, how can you expect someone else to love you if you don't love yourself.  

Your new path and new year are ahead, it is up to you to make the choice to go forward or stay in the rut you are in.

Blessings to you hon, I know you will do great.  I love you, so does God, now look in the mirror and see why so many do love you.

MangoMom