hi eot

i hope i am not bothering you with my request yet again .
if you have time and can spare some , i would like to know what is going on "in and around" me . i am trying to get hold of my life(after having gone through a recent upheavel) and move on but my mind it seems wants /is looking for something ELSE to really understand what is going on with me. i want to know/understand where i am headed ??..... to be honest ,i am not feeling anything and have become NUMB ..... what is this state i am in ?! i want to understand it and i don't find any other person better than yourself who can provide another perspective to look at the situation and understand it better , which i might be lacking altogether .

any input provided by you would be greatly appreciated ...
many thanks in advance for your time and effort

regards
sweet

Hey Sweet (both in name and also as a sweet person),

You are probably perfectly familiar with the symptoms of a person who is in a state of extreme shock, but not many people are aware that our spirit body can also suffer the negative effects of these major challenges in our lives. Just as there is such a thing as physical, mental and emotional forms of shock, psychic shock can have potentially devastating effects on a person's life force or energy reserves, and consequently put a large load on their ability and motivation to keep going.

What frequently makes psychic shock so difficult to recognise as contributing to the person's overall state of health is that in our society there are still people high up in the church and medical profession who deny that our spirit actually even exists separately from its physical vehicle, let alone being willing to accept the possibility that it could also be the victim of the stresses and strains of living on this planet.

Fortunately according to your reading, your overall energy status is only moderately affected by what has happened to you over the last year or so, and you should therefore make a complete recovery from any serious problems developing, without any urgent need for you to consult an energy healer. Now do not get me wrong about this: I am not saying that you should not look for or consult an energy healer if you feel that it could help you to get on top of the psychic numbness which you described, which is a real give away as to revealing why you are feeling so flat and out of sorts at present.

If you can find an understanding, professional healer who does not have a waiting list as long as your arm and who does not charge like a wounded bull, then please do not allow me to put you off of going to see him or her. It is just that I sense that even if you were not able to find such a person who you felt that you could trust and be comfortable with, you will still almost certainly come out of this relatively unscathed. Consulting a healer may only speed up that healing process. Once the energy levels of your spirit body are restored to their former glory, then all levels of your being with your body being the last to show the benefits will be automatically revitalised as a direct result of what happens in your body of light.

The second vital point which came out of your reading was that whatever happened to you during the period between your previous reading and now amounts to a significant loss in your life. In a strange sort of way it is very similar to you having just suffered the death of a close family member. Whether it is the death of a person, or the "death" of a relationship, your dreams or anything else the symptoms of your grief and mourning are remarkably similar in all of such cases. So you could well be currently experiencing all the symptoms of a person who is mourning the significant loss of someone who is close to her, but not realise it at the level of the mind where it most matters. There are very few conditions compared to this that tend to take away one's joy for living, and you have my empathy if this is the source of your difficulties.

When we are grieving for something (or someone) which or who we so badly wanted but because of one or more of thousands of potential reasons we cannot have and will never have, it is hardly surprising that our minds temporarily numb us to protect us from the worse effects of our psychic and emotional pain, so that we are able to continue to function relatively normally and get done what needs to be done to work upon building a life for ourselves in spite of the fact that we have effectively lost  a part of our heart when we lost that person or the possibility of that event happening to us in the future. Your body, mind and spirit all have incredible self healing mechanisms built into them that will in most situations be more than adequate in being able to cope with and slowly but surely overcome your psychic pain or numbness.

Therefore your main role lies in the direction in accelerating the self healing process as much as it is practically and financially possible, to keep out of the way of these natural healing mechanisms with which our Creator has mercifully equipped us as a life line, and let them work their healing magic. One of the worst things you could do now is to beat up on yourself for feeling as though you are not doing as well as the next person in progressively overcoming your feelings of numbness and the sense that you have lost your direction in this lifetime. Basically all your body, mind and spirit need is some TLC or tender loving care over the period of the next six months (plus some professional help if you can afford it) with the goal to restore and rebalance and reground your energy body's health status. This will then almost inevitably have a positive flow on effect on all levels of your being, with your physical body catching up last. Your reading closes with a gentle warning that is not meant to frighten you, but rather is designed to better prepare you for when it happens.

And it will happen: believe me!

As you begin to correct this energy depletion and imbalance, you will get to a point where the numbness disappears and the pain temporarily returns in full force. Understandably this is exactly the point where most people give up prematurely in believing that permanent numbness is preferable to having to feel such intense pain. Please rest assured however that you are not doing anything wrong, and that if you are able with the help and support of other caring people like myself survive this initial period of having your emotional band aid effectively ripped off your open wounds all at once, then you should eventually be good to go over the longer term. The sudden but temporary increase in the pain is the sign that you are moving in the right direction and not the wrong one. Your emotional and soul wounds will never properly heal if you leave your bandages (the numbness) on indefinitely. Your wounds need air to form a new protective layer or scar tissue, which will eventually replace the need for you remaining numb for the rest of your life.

Hoping that you will find this reading to be both informative and helpful to you in gaining a more realistic and positive perspective and approach to overcoming your life's obstacles in the future. Life is just as much about the journey as it ever was about its destination. And the same general principle applies to your current and still ongoing self healing process.

Love, Light and Healing,

EoT

hi EOT
thanks so much for doing a reading again for me.
i have believed in what you would come up with in your readings always . this time again you are spot on with everything that you have explained about my situation. nobody around me is aware of what is going on inside me. i feel i am being ripped apart . i have tried to explain it to people around me but they brush everything off saying this is all emotional crap and they don't understand a word of it , as if i am a child who is craving for attention from people around her. you have given me exactly how it has been going on inside me. i cannot afford to have a professional help at this point . and people don't see me in pain or in need of help so they hardly bother to care. but your reading makes me believe that atleast someone knows my situation clearly and that i am not on the wrong track which i am always worried for myself . things have been happening one after another with such a force in my life that i never get to recover and today i am at a point where i don't have stamina and enough courage to take more and still be able to breathe. i think i am collapsing with all my energies disintegrating and so have become numb to my surroundings . you have already explained it well in your reading . i don't know what to do ....which way to go , how to deal with this strange phenomena.... plus i had that intuition that there is more that is yet to be suffered by me and you hit the nail right on .... i thank you for confirming it and in a way preparing me so i get ready to have another blow (even if it would do good to me as u have said) ////

i hope i don't panic when that happens because as it is i am stuffed up with so much of "pain/angst/hurt" that i feel extremely burdened and not at all in a state to take more again .... instead i fear of losing myself along the way ....!!

but i am glad i asked you to read for me. your readings always bring a new perspective to look at things so one can act with sane mind .

many thanks for the time and effort you spared to read for me.
best regards
sweet

Sweet,

Your positive, upbeat responses and emotionally honest feedback are often even more enjoyable to me when compared to giving you your actual reading. In fact I am beginning to wonder which one of us is the more intuitive of the two, as you seem to already have such a deep understanding about yourself, but at such a huge cost to your sense of your own self confidence. You have learned many of your most valuable lessons about life in the school of hard knocks?

Loads of hugs and friendly kisses to you,

EoT