Dear Mjean,
You are not the only person here who easily loses track of what time has elapsed between two events. Often I have trouble knowing exactly what day it is, with my chronic insomnia meaning that I often settle down to sleep at 3.00 am or later, morning after morning. The division between night and day is getting rather fuzzy with me at the moment, so I certainly will not think any lesser of you as my internet friend if you are temporarily confused about what month it is.
Both our body clocks obviously require a completely new set of batteries.
Other members may not be aware that we are regularly in communication with one another through emails, which in some ways makes it more difficult for me to offer you an objective reading. Because I know you too well as a person and know about your family situation, I am no longer a completely outside or distant observer, which in turn makes my readings more vulnerable to accusations by others that the information coming through them may not have been gained by intuitive means. And to be honest I can never be completely certain as to what proportion of these pieces of wisdom are true insights, and what have instead come from my own everyday knowledge of your personal situation. I therefore make no claim that I can.
Your focus or theme card for this month's effort from me was
THE LOVERS.
Evidently at one time this card was simply called LOVE, but for some obscure reason it was later changed to the present more misleading in my opinion name.
This always reminds me of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden from the Biblical book of Genesis. Hovering over the head of the two naked lovers is an angelic being who it is claimed is there exclusively to bless their union as being a good thing in the sight of God. Above the angel is a blazing yellow Sun, which completely fills the sky and pours its golden rays down upon the scene below.
To me it says energy and a a deep sense of optimism about to where their relationship could potentially lead them (as well as the entire human race of which they are meant to be the beginning) if they can only learn to both live in daily awareness of God's presence in their lives, both as individuals as well as as a couple. Well that is what I believe the Biblical parable of Adam and Eve is meant to be teaching all of us, but the purpose of it in the Tarot is nowhere near as being as straight forward as that.
It was intended I feel to be about one person being so deeply and completely in love with another person, that having to even temporarily separate yourself for whatever reason from them could cause you intense and long lasting emotional pain. This separation between the two people who are wounded by Cupid's same arrow may not necessarily be a physical one, of not continuing to live under the same roof or not seeing each other ever again. It is quite possible that this is referring to your own marriage.
The Lovers was never meant to be about lust, romance or passion, but probably more about the need for increased harmony and positive co-operation and a willingness to compromise when needed within your relationship, while you are still living together in your family home.
Basically if you continue to live in each others pockets day after day, because certain factors make this necessary, the relationship can quickly become stale and the two people affected could rapidly begin to dislike or resent the very person in the whole world they most love and care for.
But if you were apart from each other for very long, your main reason and purpose for continuing to live your lives is up the spout.
Your reading is NOT saying that you should physically separate from your hubby, or that your relationship with him is on the rocks. But it is saying to me that you each need your own space within the marriage, and that you need regular times away from each other to enjoy your friends and what is and will undoubtedly be important to you if he is no longer with you further down the road.I can see there will be practical barriers to you regularly getting out of the house to rest, enjoy and recharge your spiritual batteries, both because of his physical infirmities as well as you helping him in his business.
But I do see this goal as being vital, if you are going to give yourselves the maximum possible chance of making the remaining months or years of your marriage relatively easier and friendlier ones than they might have otherwise been. You are the person who is most likely to be going out to have a life of your own when your husband is not always accompanying you.
Obviously to be able to allow this to happen he will need to trust that you are not doing anything which could destabilize or damage your relationship (do I have to go into graphic details with you about what this means?), and you could reasonably expect that you will encounter resistance from him, especially at first. This is in addition to your longer holidays away from him as your pressure safety valve.
The key words and advice for your marriage during at least the next six months covered by this reading revolve around regular time outs for yourself with your own friends, increased trust and harmony between husband and wife and vice versa, an increase in your willingness to compromise and co-operate so that shared goals can be achieved, without causing unnecessary friction between two people who still after all their conflicts and disagreements of opinion love each other in their own unique ways, at least as much as they did on the day that they first met (or possibly more so).
Love, Light and Healing to the both of you, as well as healing to your relationship over the longer term. Blessings upon your marriage.
EoT
