Another reading request from me! You guys have me hooked, sorry, what can I say. ;p

So I'm requesting a reading after being away from this site for a while. So much is happening in my life!

I was previously having difficulties in a relationship which has ended, and now my life (surprisingly and very suspiciously easily) is all about starting fresh -- a new beginning -- and being more of who I am! I am trying to rebuild my Self. So I think it's a perfect time for a reading.

I'm going through some difficulties (financial mostly), though everyone is telling me I'm crazy, that I should be totally stressing, but right now I'm not. My financial difficulties are almost no big deal to me right now--I am receiving judgements for my attitude.

But mostly I want to get a feeling out of my love life. I'm drawing positive energy into my life, but I want more pieces of the puzzle if it is possible for any of the readers out there. It is probably a vulnerable time for me, and one that I might have difficulty not reaching for the first person I see. But mostly because I feel I am meeting energies I feel more connected with than ever before I'm having a hard time understanding connections for what they are instead of what I want them to be. Maybe someone can get a sense of this for me and give me some advice. I don't want to jump back into another relationship, and yet, of course I do! And yet, I feel as if I could split in two and jump in to  at once because there is so much potential out there right now. Someone needs to ground me here with some good advice!

Oh dear!

The one thing which we do not want any of our friends to become is a reading junkie, who needs his or her monthly fix through our readings like a drug in place of being able to make her own decisions as to what is the best thing to do in any situation.  But I know that you would never become one of these, and that you merely said this as a joke (I hope).    

I love to give readings to people starting a new beginning in any area of their lives, but I am getting the distinct impression from what I am reading between the lines that now that you have ended the toxic relationship which was dragging you down and your life is now going comparatively more easily, that you are now feeling that it is all too easy and too good to be true or to last for very long. It is almost as if your previous unhealthy relationship has damaged your faith that things will eventually improve, and has done the same to your belief that you deserve any better treatment or life than you have had so far with regards to your close relationships with men.

You mention that you are currently rebuilding or reinventing yourself. Yes this would be necessary if you are going to give yourself an above average chance of making the next relationship work better than the last one did not. But in order to effectively rebuild yourself, you will need a good foundation to start from. At the moment I feel that your foundation is putting it politely not quite up to the required standards.

On one hand contrary to people telling you that you should be totally stressed out by now about your financial and other numerous difficulties, you are actually feeling quite optimistic and upbeat.

But on the other hand when your life is going so smoothly after all of the trouble which you experienced with your ex, you should be feeling equally positive and upbeat.

But you are not!

There is just as is also the case with almost every other person presently alive on this planet a subconscious conflict going on within you. There is the part of your personality which is staying positive no matter what, and the other part which is finding it difficult to stay positive for very long at a time, even when the evidence staring you squarely in the face strongly suggests that the worst of it is now behind you. In builder's terms your foundation is contaminated by impurities, or with you apparent conflicts and contradictions. One part of your psyche is working in your favour, while the other is working against you being able to fully enjoy the better life you have created for yourself by leaving your bad, failed relationship behind you.

You expressed the same idea even more eloquently when you said that....



You have got I believe most of the other puzzle pieces in their right place, but this part or its pieces will never fit in with the other good ones, no matter how much effort you put into making them fit into that picture.

Now I am not suggesting that you should because of this throw out the whole jigsaw puzzle and start again from scratch. To do that at this stage when you have already worked so hard and for so long to get to where you are now with your restored feelings of self confidence and self respect would not only be counter-productive, but also with due respect foolish.



Fixing these one or two faulty pieces could it is felt make many more remaining pieces fall neatly into place, and complete the connection that you are currently having such a difficult time understanding. I sense that you are not easily able to see the forest, because there are so many trees. In other words you are not easily able to recognise the bigger picture of how everything is so closely connected to each other, because you are so focussed on the finer details. You need to significantly expand your field of vision?

Hoping that this reading helps and does not unintentionally confuse or discourage you further from successfully assembling your puzzle picture, with all its many complex interconnections.

Loving regards,

EoT