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AmandaM
Age: 23 Zodiac: 
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Location: Canada
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2011 5:13 am |
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Hey there! Not really sure how this stuff all works on here, but I thought if it'd be cool if I could request... well I relationship reading I suppose it would end up being...
So this would be about a guy that I used to date. We broke up about a year ago. Some cliffnotes in a nutshell….. we met one summer, had sort of a thing,,, He really really liked me for about a year, but I didn’t feel the same way and only viewed him as a friend (although I did still really care about him on some level, just not in that way at all, I was quite indifferent). I ended up hurting him by acting sort of cold… in my attempt to actually not hurt him. I did finally decide to give it a go after about a year, I always considered him one of my good friends that I only wish I could like, he seemed like such a sweet guy. It was really good for a while, I’ve never had a guy love and adore me so much. I was caught completely by surprise in how hard I actually ended up loving him too.
But things ended really badly, and I was the one who was on the vulnerable hurt side of it this time. He broke my heart.
I’m a very different person now, and looking back now from the point where I am less emotionally invested and so much time has passed, I see a lot of things like-- how we moved so fast so soon early on without really knowing each other (due to time constraints in our relationship and life circumstances), and we weren't able to communicate anything to each other at the time—we were always on different maturity levels and just too much too soon.
It’s been a really long time, and I have been involved and dated other guys since,, but for some reason he has been on my mind A LOT lately. I’m not even sure how I feel or want to feel about him and the situation anymore, but it’s like for some reason I just feel this need to feel connected or communicate with him again. The last time we saw each other or talked was about 6 months ago when I was visiting, he seemed like he wanted to see me and hang out alone with me and stuff, and I’ve always noticed some jealous reactions and that from him when it comes to other guys. We’ve agreed to be friends and still get along really great. I’m not sure any sort of actual reconciliation would even be possible at this point (living in different towns, future plans etc), but it’s sort of like I maybe feel like something is left unfinished or unsaid or something,,, like something missing? We haven’t talked in so long though, and I’m wondering if it would be weird or wrong for me to contact him again? Even if we’re maybe ‘not meant to be’ (who ever really knows those things), I think I would still like him in my life, in whatever form that is supposed to be in—I’m a little worried that it might be kind of weird though. I wish that I didn’t have to always be the one to initiate things, he can be kind of a socially weird person too-- but in this situation- why am I feeling this way and what should I probably do?
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