Thanks

I saw your request to delete this post, unfortunately you are not able to delete your own posts.
Once you make a post it belongs in the public domain.

If there is an issue please send me a pm letting me know.

Kind regards

Suzi

Thanks.

Having just returned after a two day instead of the usual Thursday only break from giving readings, I can only wonder with regards to what has been edited from your original request, and why you felt that it needed to be deleted at all. I am also more than a little clear as to whether your final thanks was genuine or whether instead you said it with a definite note of cynicism behind it because you felt that we had failed to help you, and you were now as a result moving to where you believe that your request will be properly considered.

This feeling of misunderstanding and confusion by both of us as to what the other person means is not mainly anyone's fault as such, but is a direct consequence of us attempting to effectively communicate complex and highly emotionally ideas and feelings by means of an extremely imperfect internet. Those little smilies or emoticons which we use to help make what we are implying clearer are no real substitute for being physical present with you in the same room and being able to see your facial expressions and hear the tone of your voice which often together communicate much more of value when compared to the words themselves.

So in summary, I am presently confused about whether you still wish to go ahead with this reading, based upon your modified question. But the thing which really struck me was that you seem to be very focused in the past, as if you could somehow go back to how things once were, and wipe the slate clean and start again anew.

It is true that we should take whatever positive lessons we are able from our past life experiences with us into the present moment which is our only true point of personal power or influence in us being able to create a better and happier and more successful future for ourselves, but rightly or wrongly you come over to me as someone who either has serious regrets about what you have done or not done over the previous four decades of your life so far, or alternately you are attempting to test our ability to give you a psychic reading or specifically to predict hat the future will be like, based on how accurately we have described what is now behind you.

Your reading which I have intentionally kept relatively brief when compared to my usual more lengthy efforts (because I am not sure how committed you are to continuing with this request at all) is basically telling me that you are carrying a large amount of negative emotional baggage with you from your past relationships into any which you may have from now on.

Actually come to think of it you are presently heavily weighed down by a huge accumulating burden of regret and possibly also a degree of unnecessary guilt or shame about what you have said or done in the past, none of which can be easily taken back or reversed as though it had never happened. Or the regret or guilt you are experiencing may alternately be because you failed in your own eyes to do or say something which you really think that you should have, and now feel that you missed a golden opportunity to set things right with this other unidentified person.

It is felt based entirely upon this one isolated reading that almost all of the regret, guilt and personal embarrassment which you are currently experiencing concerning what you did or did not do but feel that you should have as part of your past relationships have little or no basis in reality. The reading is not saying that the emotional pain from your past which you are feeling is not real, or that you are being told that you should not be feeling that way, but it is questioning what useful purpose you may reel is being served by constantly beating up on or punishing yourself for what was only human nature and nowhere near as serious as your mind is making out it was.

The most popular word for what your unconscious mind appears to be doing is CATASTROPHIZING.  

You unconscious mind is taking every small and relatively trivial detail from your past relationships, and is magnifying or blowing them out of all reasonable proportion into this being a major disaster where there is no turning back, and on the other hand no way that you can see to continue to move forwards with your plans. Not only is your unconscious making mountains out of molehills about what you said or did in your past relationships, but it is projecting every little piece of your past well into the present moment and future as absolute evidence to support its shaky theory that things can never get any better for you relationship wise, than they were way back then.

None of us should be held to account or or made to feel responsible for the contents of our unconscious minds. By definition anything which is unconscious is largely outside of our conscious awareness and is also not the result of a conscious decision which we have made. To a varying extent what lies in our unconscious is mainly not under our conscious control. Why then do we continue as human being to punish ourselves for something from our past over which we had little if any conscious control or responsibility for?

Your mini reading (mini only by my standards) ends with a similar message to when it started. And that message is that while the past can if read without our strong emotions getting in the way of our better judgement, logic and reason as an indicator offer us useful clues as with regards to what our future will most likely be, the only way that your past will be allowed to determine that future is if you carry the largely not deserved regrets from your past relationships with you into any which you may try to have from now on.

In order to get at or access these negative unconscious thoughts which are making your unconscious mind your worst enemy and holding you back from fully enjoying yourself in or committing yourself to either current or future relationships which you may have over the coming months and years you may require the assistance, knowledge and training of a professional to help you to free yourself of much of this negative emotional baggage, before you can reasonably expect to make any further significant forward progress on the relationship front.

Either an important person from your past has died, or much more likely your relationship with them feels as though it has suffered a similar fate. The death of a person as well as the "death" of a close long term relationship are both equally a valid reason for you to mourn or grieve for your past significant emotional and spiritual losses. Perhaps with the help of a qualified professional, slowly but surely put your relationship past firmly behind you (always much easier said than done).

Root out and methodically destroy these negative thought weeds which are choking your progress towards having happier and more satisfying over the longer run relationships, before they can get too well established and therefore as a result much more difficult to remove as time moves on. Lighten your emotional burden of unnecessary regret, guilt, shame and embarrassment concerning your perceived past failed relationships, so as to give yourself an above average chance of moving forwards again with renewed self confidence and self respect.

Life begins at 40, or at any age which we want it to or believe that it does.

So can our realistic hopes and dreams of ever being able to have satisfying and loving long term close relationships with members of the opposite gender. If we are already in an existing relationship, living arrangement or even marriage, the same general principle equally applies to if we are still alone without any partner at all. Our urgent and ongoing need for feeling loved and valued for being the person whom we already are, and sharing the love which we feel in our hearts we wish is not confined to any specific age group.

Be kinder to and more compassionate towards yourself,

EoT

PS I did not fail to notice that your declared age of 34 and your DOB and displayed age of 45 are out of line with each other. Is there a valid reason for you to attempt (not very well I might add) to conceal your true age from us? Are either of these correct, unless you are a single mature age student still living at home with your parents. We are not allowed by the laws of the internet to give readings to anyone under the age of 18 (which is why I asked). I am giving you the benefit of the doubt about what your true age is, in good faith that you are not really under 18

Thanks for that. My request was genuine, but I guess I just started thinking of the worst things that could happen so I changed my mind and wanted it deleted. And yes I'm over 18. I thought no one would bother once I changed my mind so I re-edited my original post. The reading itself was very good and accurate. I m amazed that people that can do readings over the internet. And yes, I know I've got to get over the past and start thinking more positively. I even tried hypnotherapy for a few months but that didn't work. Thanks again for the reading and the help.