I'm having a lot of trouble right now (hmm, this seems like a pattern for me here, doesn't it!!) Well, the thing is I've been having this ongoing dellimna for quite some time now. I've been finding all this justification for going with what I believe and standing behind it, but it's so hard to know what to believe. How do you separate real gut feelings and "knowings" from fantasies?

Here is a gist of what I've been under the influence of believing:
I felt drawn to a guy a couple years ago through a series of events that were really all just a string of associations after being inspired by a dream somebody had described at a friend's house one day. Basically the elements of his dream somehow inspired me to make certain moves in my life that led me to this person. Then, as I got to know him I started to feel like I had made some kind of contract with him for this life, I don't know how, but it's just a sense I have (I get similar things about several people, especially guys I date). I have these kinds of beliefs but also doubt myself, or remain "skeptical" of my possible mere fantasies (because I have a creative imagination). I'll add this contract feels very strong to me, like I had been waiting for it my whole life til now and I don't have anyone else I'm looking for to start a relationship with, like this is the one I was meant to focus on working with in this lifetime.

Well, I don't know how to separate this belief from the possiblity that I need to let this belief go! How does one figure such a thing out? So many things, emotional and logical, are completely running in opposition to holding onto this belief, yet the belief has been so stuborn and overpowering.

Are we ever guided falsely? That's essentially what I want to know. And if we are, suppose it's for a reason, how do we break away from what we believe in if it turns out to be false? How do we know if it's false or if we should keep following it?

Maybe this is not answerable. More than anything, I want to vent. I also feel a lot of self doubt, so maybe I want justification in my feelings too. Haha, just give me feedback! I feel so useless. I often fear being crazy underneath and I'm a really level headed person who needs control perhaps too much, because I have so many radical beliefs about my soul. :(

I'll add finally, I am AFRAID of letting go of this belief that I have about this guy I've met. I feel like if I let go of this situation -- which I want to believe is an opportunity when it might in fact just be a false belief leading me nowhere --- if I let it go I could be doing the completely wrong thing and not listening to my higher self. I feel like this could be disastrous. But then, it could be the opposite and sticking to it is disastrous. Help!

I apologize for the way I express my thoughts. I'm going to narrow this topic down a little here to get a discussion, rather than moan about my problems (even though it feels so good to do it!)

Basically, does anyone here have insights or can you relate to this problem of when you sense things and whether you really believe them in your heart and follow them or doubt them? When dealing with sensory perceptions outside of what is "normal" how CAN you know what's real from fantasy? Is it only a matter of time and discovering the outcome? You could be pleasantly surprised or hopelessly crushed.

I often feel I am being "led" in my life, but it could very easily just be something I want to believe and so have made up, right? The feeling of being led by something/someone higher than myself could just be a placebo effect from desiring it.

I can relate......I was recently scammed by a group of people on the internet.  As a sensitive being we can and are open to consider ourselves as the centre of a romance (or other events as well).  I also wonder in my case if I am still grieving a loss of a partner.  

Anyway this is not about me, it is about the fact that our mind can talk us into believing anything when we are vulnerable to our own needs and wants.

I, too, am a sensible down to earth person but managed to pay a lot of $ before this was through.  Why?  Because I wanted to believe in the ultimate good of the romance that was being presented.  When all is said and done - it wasn't even someone in my life - it was an internet story.  

And I was sleep walking through life instead of my usual focus on my own welfare.  You sound the same - wake up and smell the coffee.  Love is around the corner.

Love is like holding a delicate bird in your hand.  When you close your hand, you can crush the life out of the bird.  When you open your hand and set it free, it will return if it was meant to be.

im in the exact same situation now. its so frustrating. but i believe with all my heart theres somthing hes not saying. i can see it. and the whole contract thing describes my view on my love life. i will not even attempt to try for a relationship with anyone else bc everythings already there with this one guy. theres meaning to his gestures, change in his voice, look in his eye that ive never seen with anyone else. sept 21st will be the day we met 2 yrs ago. and i cant let go bc im waiting for "that" day ive been waiting for. am i pathetic, insane or right for doing this?

im in the exact same situation now. its so frustrating. but i believe with all my heart theres somthing hes not saying. i can see it. and the whole contract thing describes my view on my love life. i will not even attempt to try for a relationship with anyone else bc everythings already there with this one guy. theres meaning to his gestures, change in his voice, look in his eye that ive never seen with anyone else. sept 21st will be the day we met 2 yrs ago. and i cant let go bc im waiting for "that" day ive been waiting for. am i pathetic, insane or right for doing this?