Dear Sindy,
My heart goes out to you, as I can almost sense the incredible amount of love which you still feel for him, deep inside my own chest. It is both at the same time one of the advantages and disadvantages of me being so sensitive to other people's emotions and feelings.
I am genuinely sorry that we cannot help you directly in this special manner, but it is the site's and my own belief that mediumship readings are usually better done offline, where the medium is in the same room as you, and is able to give you the emotional support which is often required when you are still painfully grieving for the loss of your loved one.
Although mediumship readings are not permitted on this site, that does not mean however that we are neither able nor willing to help you to get through this.
In addition to you seeking a reading from a medium in your local area, I would suggest that a psychic reading given by myself might also be of some positive benefit in giving you the extra strength and courage and assurance to continue to live your life, without him any longer being in it (in the physical sense).
If you would like me to do such a reading for you at any time, please let me know about it under this thread, and I will do my very best to offer you some guidance and comfort with the positive intention to at least make this most difficult of times a little easier for you, than if you had instead gone it alone.
Below is a lovely piece of verse which helped me to cope with the death of my dear mother in December 2006, and which I have a copy of magnetically attached to the side of my computer's tower case, so that I can always see and read it when I am having one of my bad days, and life simply gets too much to bear without being able to hold Mum in my arms one more time, and tell her just how much I love her and am proud to be her son.
"Death is Just an Open Door"
http://www.stargazerdownunder.com/general/reading/door.html
Please accept my sincere condolences and healing prayers for your significant loss.
Love, Light and Peace,
eye_of_tiger
