EoT

Thanks again for your reading:-

I have tried some of the techniques you suggested to stay calm  and have been thinking of basic level meditation so will give this a go.

Two of Wands - I liked your interpretation of this card and I have been in this waiting stage for quite a while now over a year having exhausted all avenues. Is it better to accept it will never happen and try to find some peace (easier said than done) rather than hold on to hope...I want to continue my life without the heavy heart feeling that I have it is almost like being on auto pilot.

'Reality of duality' - indeed a very good phrase and so true how can one feel so much love and hate for the same person you wouldn't think it possible you are a very wise person and your explanation is wonderful. Your insight into emotions and thoughts almost taking on a life of their own is also true hopefully the meditation will help.

I would like to thank you for being so generous with your time and for your articulate and caring/personal response  and sharing your wisdom with me.
God Bless.

Bloggs,

You are very welcome and your delayed response was definitely worth my waiting for. Your kind words and useful feedback were much appreciated by this humble reader. Your questions also demonstrate a deep level of thought which is a credit to you.

You asked.....



No, do not ever give up completely and release all hope that it will eventually happen, but have backup plans A, B and if necessary C close at hand, just in case it takes longer than you expected that it might.

Also do not put the rest of your life on indefinite hold in the meantime.

Although it often seems easier in the short term to accept that it will always be this way and that therefore there is no valid reason to hold on to your hope any longer, total surrender and becoming life's victim is not an option for a survivor like yourself.

Even though you may lose one or two battles in your life now and then, the overall war has not been lost until you are no longer willing to get up after having just fallen flat on your face yet again, and try that one more time.

The last year might have felt to you to be like an eternity, but looking down from the higher perspective of one or many lifetimes, it is only like a millisecond.

Clearly the apparent speed to you of the passing of psychological and chronological time can seem very different from each other, and from person to person.

This is always easier said than done, because you are the only person in this world and in your life who can do it. I can only at best encourage and support you in your ongoing efforts.

From an optimist but also a realist,

EoT  

EoT

Thanks for your kind words of support, they brought a tear to my eye as they are all the things my head tells me but hard to balance with my heart but I will try harder.

x